A field of hope...

White Lilies

Lily of the Valley

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A field of hope

Walking on soiled ground
Dandelions whisper,a sound
Among flying petals,thy found
Thou,sitting among the beauties around..

Heartbeats,thy trot through anxiously
Blinded,thy wonder curiously
Amazed,thy want to touch lovingly
Warm,thy felt intensely

Through the greens,thy walk
For the only wish was to talk
A beauty among beauties
A face purer than white lilies..

And at that moment,heaven's gaze
Sending beams of light in place
Falling onto thou,thy in daze
Heart skipped its pace

Why would thou be among flowers
Beneath the clouds that hovers
Overlooking the towering blue sky
Watching the birds soar high..

And at that moment,thy...
Stroke softly,though thou shy
Emotions spoke freely
Thou,my Lily of the Valley

Blossoming through lovely May
Brightening my day
What hast thou..?
Thou art,thy Lily of May...

Referring to Fang Kai's post on his future Gf *Sorry ya Fang Kai,ambil idea dari blog awak.LOL*,I'll like to give him due credit 1st for me taking ideas from that post. =p

Well..Im glad dreams did came true.Wishes did.And I,will continue to walk on the path of comfort along side that person together..till we reach the last sunrise and sunset that will ever cross the lands.

White Lilies,as described in the poem represent purity or a heavenly feeling being with someone u love.White Lilies too are linked to Juno,while nursing Hercules some of her milk fell from the skies creating the stars we know as the Milky way.While some dropped onto Earth,creating pure white lilies.

Lily of the Valley meanwhile,represent the return of happiness, purity of heart, sweetness, tears of the Virgin Mary, you've made my life complete, humility, happiness and love's good fortune. The legend of the lily of the valley is that it sprang from Eve's tears when she was kicked out of the Garden of Eden. It is also believed that this flower protects gardens from evil spirits and is also known as the flower of May.

Bright as a sunflower,lovely like the Lilies in May and pure in ways like the white lilies of Juno..


Till then,

....

I feel uneasy
cuz I was late..

I feel tight inside..
Choking
Heart all twisted into a small ball

And that I had things 2 say but had to be cut off
I juz had to be cut off
No...dun start with it being ok

Its not to me..
No its not ok...

I didnt want u to walk off that way
but I feel guilty for not doing more

Cuz u went to bed feeling sore

What the hell was I doing...


I...wanna....
talk 2 u,now...

Pls pick..up.

I have so much to say now
I dun care bout things already,I juz wanna talk 2 u..

Pls pick up...
Pls pick up.....
Pls...pick up......
Pls.


I..Im sorry.

Road after road...

He...was working hard to make ends meet

I was with him for 2 hours

And I felt that deeply

How he had to listen to his superior

and had to rush around whenever they lifted their hands

Making things seem so easy..

He was talking to me bout cars,that he wanna buy me one

And bout IMU and how he noe I'll do my best

Then at times he'd sound like an ass

I...dunno,whats best now..

I run on hatred sumtimes,not feeling my daily cup of it feels weird

Why must he be such a bastard sumtimes..cuz I was holding it in since the car ride..

I wont say those words out,but u know how it feels in me..

My utmost respect for u,at the end of the day..it'll never be drained completely..

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Sumtimes I wonder...

Are words the only way for 2 humans to connect..

Maybe not,judging by how some are gifted with judging based on emotional responses.. A frown,a wink,a smile,a twitch.. It seems that speaking is my strong point.Power point presentations,public speaking,debating,scolding people and cursing *Whoops* ~ =P But talking with ppl that matter the most.. D.I.F.F.I.C.U.L.T.

Not as in difficult to accomplish..but rather,difficult to think bout things to say. Its like,u stare and juz gawk at them.Not like their some super star that appeared right infront of u.. Thats the "Obsessed fanboy/fangirl" stare.Haha..

Its more like the,"Im relaxed feeling grateful and happy then turn blank" stare.U juz feel powerless and all weak,cuz its the time to relax and be urself.Showing things u never do.. and juz having fun.Sumtimes u juz run out of things to say..I guess it happens a lot for me.And Im dissapointed in myself for that.Cuz its like,I must always come in with a script for talking..or else I'd be lost.

So..its dissapointing that way....


I juz..feel weird.And awkward sumtimes,maybe Im still a boy inside. Not much of a change from before. I dunno..

Gahhh...its frustrating la.
And its juz plain weird....
I noe theres ntg much to it,but I wanna do my best..
Its not a competition or anything la,I know
Wait...wth am I saying,I lost myself la
Lol,kla,time to end this post...


Till then,

:)

A chocolate cake called Reality

My bro got 6As for PMR.
lol,talk about the both of us having the same score.

Im proud of him...really.
But I juz dun show it like : WHOOAAAAAAA,CONGRATSSSSS YOOO! and stuff..
I juz said,congrats.The End.

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Hmm...time spent on things really matter u know?

Like...time spent with the ppl u want most

Time spent with frens whom are like blood brothers

Time spent with family?
Non existent

I dunno why its that way,but I really can't be bothered.


Nun : U really shudnt be at the temple so often.Go back and spend time with ur kids..
Mum : Its ok.Im busy here now.
Nun : No,u shud be at home with the kids.
*Then proceeds to continue stitching the decoration for the temple*

Uncle : Next time,spend more time with the boys.
Mum : I know whats right for them la..
*Then proceeds to wind up the car window*

Both situations were heard by my bro,I wasnt actually there
But frankly,I could feel the pinch too

Which brings me to the topic,is my bro really happy?
He was absent for lunch when our dad wanted to "celebrate"

Mum on the other hand wudnt stop banging on other's phone number reporting her son's feat..

So....how is this situation fairing from the point of ur view?
Im juz too lazy to bother.


Im more anxious waiting for Santa to drop me a gift~
Oh wait...I already have a gift ;)
Im such a greedy bastard :P

Till then,

Anything and Everything

Been busy lately

Temple stuff,that was Thursday till Sunday

And It's You

Hehe..

But it was fun
No no,I didnt mean those ABOVE were fun

I meant...that~

Till then,
Squish Squish Squish~ <3 x)

Motion

Eh eh...

Er..I'm kinda

worried

o_o



Like...I dunno -_-

What if Im doing a bunch of things that make me look stupid
=/

Or or...if Im doing too much that makes it go overboard

Or or or...if Im doing too little that makes it look like Im not bothered.


Seriously la,sumone shud like draw a map for me

And program my steps

Cuz Im kinda having all these marshmallows stuck in my head

Jamming my thoughts ._.


Am I walking too fast?
=/

Gee~

Till then,

:D

The previous post on Moans and Complaints was removed

;)

From pink cakes to bladders..



hahaha

Till then,
:)

Today 2day Yesterday And the Future Days

Come future
Come past
Come present
Come dreams
Come failures
Come today,tomorrow,yesterday,the future and the likes..

I'll be ready...
No more excuses,Im taking the future with my own hands..

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2day was...Ok.Haha...wait,Im not speaking as of Today.
I meant yesterday. :D

I kinda didnt receive gifts.But hey,who needs em.I got sumthing more precious...

Sumthing that I can proudly look at..
Sumthing that I can smile sincerely to and yet giggle when things are awkward..
Sumthing that I can hold tightly in embrace when Im happy..
Sumthing that I can juz stare blankly into space at,yet feel amused and happy..
Sumthing that I can smile to God and be grateful for..
Sure,the journey didnt started out as planned..but Im no longer bothered by that..
Bcuz I promise..and I do..


And bcuz of that...Im willing to wear my heart outside and not hide them

Though Im a bit shy and maybe speechless sumtimes
but..

Thats the best gift ever..

Human life itself..
To see another soul stand next to u come day,rain,shine or storm..
That itself is the greatest gift I've ever received..ur existence being part of me and my life..


Till then,

Freedom's Blade

Ep.39 of Gundam SEED Destiny

On a side note,Strike Freedom is one of my favourite Gundams :D


Minus the fighting and killing -_- ,this video does carry a certain meaning to sum things up...

Some things juz can't be expressed using block letters or alphabets..

"I should be the one to apologize.."

As said by Athrun Zala,when prompted for forgiveness

Together,we'll go back to where everyone are..filled with joy and comfort in each other's company..

Kira found Lacus...finally..

Till then,

Highlight of the week *And probably following weeks*

1st Look at
Mobile Suit Gundam : Gundam vs Gundam NEXT Plus

Console : PSP
Currently running on : PSP Ver. >6.00 (U must have Ori Software to play this)
Size : 1.63GB (Approximately 1.7GB)

Mechas usable : Approximately 70 playable units in total

PSP Special units :
Reborns Gundam
00 Raiser
The-O
Providence Gundam
Kshytria
Unicorn Gundam
Wing 0 Custom
Gundam Nataku

On to the review
*Note,I havent played the game as I dun own an Ori copy and my PSP recently got bricked,aka I have to downgrade it to Custom Firmware to play fake games*

(We at the forums are currently working hard and keeping up to crack the game for u guys out there)

The playable units selection line up certainly grew big this time.Its nearly 2.5 times that of the original Gundam vs Gundam,its prequel.Many playable units each with distinctive gameplay and "unique to self" skills.The new PSP units are certainly a welcomed addition to the band of Gundams already playable.

Maps too have grown,original GvG maps are included and they certainly expanded the playable Courses from 8 to 11 now. *Course/Routes A-K are playable in arcade mode*

I can't say much bout the campaign mode aka PLUS mode.It certainly is nice but I'll blog bout this once the Custom ver. of the game comes out.

Units
Reborns Gundam certainly plays out well being the lead villain in the Gundam 00 series.Yes,it does have the "Im bad ass" aura and it certainly does have the unique Fang/Funnel attack.While the targeting of the Fangs are relatively dissapointing for balance purposes,the melee and swinging of its big beam saber is extremely lethal and damaging.Reborns Cannon can be used by pressing the (X and Square button) at the same time to quickly hover and fire a barrage of beams for cover.

Trans-Am mode allows R.G's beam rifle to change to some sort of big grinding laser.Good for downing enemies while u finish off the other with ur sword un-interrputed.Sadly its Trans-Am fails to provide much cover unlike the after images from Exia/00 Raiser or F-91.U can still EASILY get shot and someone can drive a sword right thru u while ur in Trans-Am with much ease.Be careful bout abusing that.This ain't the Exia or 00 Raise ;)

Assist is the Gadessa using a grinding shot.Pretty good for a distraction.Decent rifle,good melee combos but sadly the Fangs/Funnels juz cant hit the enemy properly.They shoot EVERYWHERE except the enemy. -_- Certainly Class A Gundam if u ask me and will give players trouble on LAN Vs mode.

00 Raiser is way overpowered.Assist is the Seravee shooting a Slow Big Ball of Death that mows anything down along its path.Good to use it after u've downed and enemy and they are attempting to get up.Otherwise,the ball is pretty much DODGEABLE.Trans-Am gives new melee sets and after images which screw up ur aiming.And for those who manage to end the battle with Trans-Am,u'll be rewarded with a nice pose of 00 Raiser releasing massive amounts of GN particle.

The-O returns to become an unlockable this time.Its sub skill allows it to use the Awakening system *From ZGundam vs Gundam* where u can utilize Speed,Assault or Recovery to ur benefit.Assault will doube ur attack damage,Speed gives near unlimited boost while recovery gives u extra 100 hp after 'death'.The-O's assist is the Bolindak Samahn which allows the player to see it's opponents boost gauge.

Providence gained new charge attacks and melee combos.Its assist is the green GuAIZ.It now can unleash a devasating undodgeable Dragoon combo which leech off all its ammo to deal big amount of damage.

Wing 0 Custom can't block physically as it got no shield,but pressing X and Square while its flying allows it to cover itself with the pair of wings temporarily decreasing damage received and blocking certain projectiles.The twin beam rifle can be fired continuos twice and the charge shot can now be upgraded to level 3.Melee orientated and it does have a few nice thrust and multi-slash combos.Deadly ;)

Nataku certainly is deadly close and far.It can toss its trident making a 360 deg. turn and can unleash the twin dragon arms at u.

Due to the Custom firmware coming out on 15th Dec,guess I'll have to wait till then to play the game.
But if I can't hold it,maybe Ori ftw eh?


Till then,
Will give a 2nd review once I got the game.

Disturbia

Apparently...

I've yet to have meet ppl who really disgust me,not till today

I thought the puzzle set I bought was completed..
Not till I found extras that will fit in to the picture.


Seems like this person is a major in fuckology.

Some ppl are so disgusting,u juz can't bear to see why God left them on this planet

Theres always the wolf and the sheep

I'd fucking kill all the wolfs if I have to

The next time u and me talk,I'll call u fucko for the way u behave
Leeching on my life


Friend? No...ur worst than an animal.

Is there no one on this fucking goddamn planet that I can trust
Oh yeah,there is no fucking goddamn human I can trust

Touch the Sky

The Narcissus

The Holly

December

In Latin,Decem means 10.December is represented by 2 plants : The Narcissus and Holly.

Narcissus : The name of this plant comes from 2 myths.One is that of the youth of Greek mythology called Narcissus,became so obsessed with his own reflection as he kneeled and gazed into a pool of water that he fell into the water and drowned. In some variations, he died of starvation and thirst from just sitting by the edge of the pool until he gave out, gazing at his reflection until he died.

Holly : A plant commonly linked to Christmas.

The birthstone for December is Zircon and blue turquoise.While the birthplant of December is the toxic plant known as the Christmas Star.

Sagittarius (♐)

Known as the 9th astrological sign in the Zodiac.The element is Fire and they are under the Mutable sign category.

Mutable Sign :
Mutable signs are associated with change and versatility. Individuals born under the four mutable quality signs are thought to be adaptable, impressionable, sharp, sympathetic, communicative,resourceful and restless, with a gift for seeing both sides of a situation at the same time and an immense desire for knowledge, variety and new ideas.

They supposedly adapt very well to new situations, possess much flexibility, seldom have any particular agenda and are perfectly happy to fill in an assigned role. However, they are also said to be inconsistent, changeable, nervous, indecisive and irresponsible, with a tendency to get wrapped up in tiny particulars. There is also a certain duality associated with all the mutable quality signs.

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December is pretty much on its way here while Im typing this.But besides the Gundam game coming out on the 3rd,Im not looking forward to any shit.I dun see any spark in December and I ain't got the mood.There's juz not much anticipation after so many years of me celebrating my bday minimally.

This 10th Dec I'll probably be busy celebrating else where and performing at the same time.So I can't really dedicate 10th to u guys,sry...I got a lot of performances coming up till January and I have to fulfill my responsibilty to the temple.

Reflecting on the past mth,I kinda got tangled in many cross fire.Namely I still find it hard to forgive my Dad.And I'm still stuck occasionally on the previous crisis.I find it hard to let go,but after re-telling the whole shyt,I find myself trotting on the right path.And I hope to never look back.Some things are juz meant to be.And as I said,they are really meant to be left untouched,be it human or event.I'm able to stare at the blue sky and wonder what makes it blue now.Without actually feeling blue.. Besides,I feel stupid and retarded feeling sry for that kind of craptastic story.

I may appear angry,frustrated or restless.True,my heart seems a little jumpy cuz of the events and things happening.But Im juz plain dissed when ppl pop in unnecessary lines.Sumtimes juz seeing who says what is enough to make u scrunch ur lip up.Its that annoying.

I ain't in for any big surpise shyt either.I hate surprises.I've said it once,and I'll say it again.If its good then I don't mind.But most of the time its bad : eg. IX,today's practice cancelled! When im already half way there. -_-

Lastly,I find it ironic how some feel poked by my personal msg or shout out.Be it if its not related to u,asking is fine.But feeling a pinch?Whoever eats chilli feels the heat.Ain't mah fault ur feeling that way.Probably ur conscience reminding u of history based on what u read at present.Again I ain't addressing this to anyone,if u felt a nudge based on what u read its YOUR own problem.

1 year goes by,and Im much deeper in thoughts and actions.Ntg big to be proud of.I juz want 10th to be normal.BUT... I didnt say I'll forsake company.If u wanna celebrate sure.Its always good to have nice souls around me..

But seriously,I dun see it that grant.I was thought that way from young..
Juz having a meal and bday wishes is enough for me.
Juz lemme see what colour ur hearts are..

Mine is sky blue now..

What bout ur heart?

Till then,

Talk To You

SHINee mini album : Romeo

"Talk To You" Translation

[Key] S H I N double E
You gonna get it to my ride

[Minho] Wherever I go, everyone’s gaze turns to my attention
You get pulled in by just one charm
They all stop in place, move on
Pass! My indescribable f-f-feelings towards the girl that stole my heart

[Onew] Listen to what I have to say now
[Key] You might not be interested, since many men talk like this
[Jonghyun] Not gonna hurt you, open your heart for a moment
[Taemin] If I let you go without saying anything
[Onew] I feel like I won’t be able to see you again, so I gather up the courage

[All] The rush of my beating heart
Everything in this moment is in a hush
Together with the music
[Onew] Let me talk to you

*[All] I really liked you, it was just that
I don’t need anything else, baby, I want to know you
You took all of my heart
[Jonghyun] I like the way you talk
Listen, baby girl, to my beating heart

[Taemin] Come and dance with me
Give your body into the music, all right
[Key] You act as if you don’t care, but I like it
[Onew] This magical attraction talks to my body
[Jonghyun] The drum & bass hit your heart
And like a flowing melody, it sings us a song
[Minho] (And) Let the beat drop

[All] The rush of my beating heart
Everything in this moment is in a hush
Together with the music
[Jonghyun] Let me take the lead

*(Repeat)

[Onew] Will you let me listen to your sweet song?
[Taemin] A captivating melody
[Jonghyun] Hearing a song for the first time is unfamiliar
[Key] But I’m already used to it
[Jonghyun] We are meant to be

*(Repeat x2)

[Key] Why are you trying to steal her heart?
There’s no way she’d fall for you
Temptation is lacking some holic
([Jonghyun] I know you wanna be with me)
[Minho] Stop your misunderstanding
With just one glance, you can tell I’m superior
[Key] But that’s just your fantasty
The only one holding the key to her heart is me
[Minho] But reality is different
Don’t underestimate the power of the charisma in my heart
Don’t worry about it anymores

Wait...I dunnid that.Add a Don't and change it to Me pls

Till then,

Paper planes

*Paper planes*

Absent minded,they fly
Cutting through,they pass by
Fearless,not asking why
Marching on,till the wind dies..

Clinging onto believe
Nothing in mind,but to achieve..
Though the front,none but a cliff
Possesed,they chase a myth

Giving all they have
Till none is left
To others,they are deaf
Only her in mind,thats left

Paper planes fly
Right up to the sky
They go on till thou die
Then on the ground,they cry

Paper planes are pretty much like human experience and emotions.When u fold one,u project ur emotions into it.How u fold and design ur plane reflects ur attitude and how serious u are in building them.Some choose crafty designs,while others focus on perfect folding and creases..

Right after that,when u finally comfirm ur happy with ur design,u throw them out and hope the wind will carry them high.U cast those emotions on others in hopes of a connection.Sadly,some let the wind carry them too high.And become drifted in airspace,possesed by the will to fly futher and dive deeper towards their goal.They become lost souls,enveloped in the feeling of flight.They can no longer see truth and are deaf to others.

Paper planes fly straight when thrown.Much like how we felt initially before we are possesed by our own goals and intentions.However when in air,a paper plane might deviate from its course and wind up somewhere else.They might turn around,they might fly towards either sides or they might crash.


My paper plane deviated,and landed back in my palms.

Im glad it did anyway..
It would've been shit if it crashed..

Hows ur paper plane flying?

Till then,

The big table of ABC

Once upon a time~
I woke up with that image in my head
I can't really say I know what it means,but it certainly does look familiar to sumthing I know
A=>B but B=>C,and God knows what C got in mind.
The ending was A still hugging onto dreams bout B
And A couldn't forget anything despite B being trouble
The End

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Miscommunication is usually the root of problems.I find it ignorant when some ppl have up to 3 mths to confirm and inform us about the situation and yet didn't double check with us.Maybe they forgot or it was SPM but they could do it much better and well arranged.The moment they ask for our hand in the agreement,they should have told us all the conditions and flaws.Yet we were told after our training schedule went on the way...great.Now who's the one having a tough time deciding.

And yet I find life being bitter at times when we're forced to walk down a certain path not wanted due to a majority vote.Much like mindless sheeps being led by a guard dog,we're pretty much powerless.The majority win vote is always superior as opposed to the "I think this is correct" mindset.Intriguing but true..

Yet today I woke up to such a scenario.The fate of our team whether we'll go on or not depends on how we interpret such a scenario.Too desperate to perform till we're willing to pay,or Rm50 being worth for a buffet and us working out a sweat for some cheers and claps. One or the other?

I hate this kind of "Choose one only" situations..Usually no one's gonna be completely happy,not when it involves money.Considering my current family situation,I can't be flowing green papers from my wallet all time now.Im torn between being a traitor and being a mindless sheep.. -_-

But I do hope we can solve this.Dun get me wrong,I do wanna perform and any chance given is pretty much welcomed.However when it involves us giving money to them yet performing?I figure we could juz dance there then get out as soon as possible,that'd be nice,no? I dun think Rm50 for prom buffet is gonna be a Yes for me.Its simply not worth it.. Besides,we barely know the whole group of 'em.And its their prom,why will we be sitting among them for a meal? Besides the intention to "kao lui" and "dance+get h/p number" I dun see any reason why sumone is so willing to fork out Rm50 for that. Sorry to say,thats my take. Human relation> Hotel buffet +Rm50? Not.Worth.It

This is gonna be ugly.

Whatever the group's decision is..I'll respect it.
But pls,dun think I willingly fork out Rm50 while working out a sweat to show u a dance
Im juz being a sheep

'We're Kings of the World' as quoted from Ellis from Left 4 Dead 2

Ignoring the fact that my past post was screwed,Im gonna give the green lights to myself and review Left 4 Dead 2.If u dun wanna be spoiled then dun read on.No pics at the moment but I'll snap a few when I can later on tonight.Enjoy~ :)

Left 4 Dead 2
Retail price : Rm 250 for Xbox 360 and most likely the same for PC *Yeah,its crappo*
*Cough cough version retail price comes at Rm10 per piece and is available at the Atria gamestation,Gamepoint*

Released : 17th Nov 2009 by VAVLe and plays as 1st person or 3rd person thru console command

Whats new :
5 new campaigns
a)Dead Center *Mall/shopping complex style campaign* 1-4 stage
b)Dark Carnival *Basically a carnival with an awesome finale,the best by far* 1-5 stage
c)Swamp Fever *Jungle type* 1-4 stage
d)Hard Rain *Shud be renamed as Hard Shit,this stage is difficult* 1-5 stage
e)The Parish *French quarter apartments anyone? :) * 1-5 stage

4 New survivors (Coach,Rochelle,Nick and Ellis)

A new scavenge mode where u actually look for gas cans to fill up a certain machine to win
*Er...ok....this doesnt really appeal to me in my humble opinion,playing with AI? No thx.Always go for multiplayer.*

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Right,for u all grumpy out there the REAL review starts now

I've tried Dead Center,Dark Carnival and a little of The Parish.Generally speaking,the stages are really creative and well constructed.Graphic is a little upgraded compared to L4D 1.My Xbox had to install some sort of graphic upgrade b4 it will run thus explaining the improved graphic.
The zombies look rather 'fresh'.Shoot em in the tummy if u wanna see their ribcage.If u wondered how humans look like fleshwise from the back then go ahead ;) Using melee will slice their heads of CLEAN and if u aim for the tummy,watch their guts spill out Harakiri style.
The story is kinda present now rather than in L4D 1 where u dun even know where the eff did Bill or Francis come from.The campaigns start off well and are linked hence enhancing the story.

Much like the Bill<==>Francis Hate and vice versa,we have the Coach vs Nick vs Ellis hate.The lines are hillarious and funny especially when Nick uses sarcasm during reply lines.Though the relationship could've been further hyped up much like in L4D 1,I do hope VALVe adds more connection between them during future FREE Downloadable Content. :/

Weapons are interesting and well balanced for Versus mode and Scavenge mode online gameplay.There's no 'imba weapon of godly destruction' in L4D2.U either get high firepower for long reload time,low firepower but fast fire rates or standard power with burst shots etc etc..
Very well done I must say.I do have a hard time choosing between the 3 rifles given at the same location and it very much boils down to ur preference.

The new boomer bile jar while fun to use does have risky prospects as players need to take care of the 'summoned infected' once the effect is over.The chest paddles/defibrilator is also known as the mobile closet where u can revive ur teammate within roughly 25 secs.Revived player gains 50 permanent hp.Melee weapons also vaary in swing speed,damage and swing arc so choose carefully.My favourite is none other than the guitar and pan.The axe is nice too xD

Alright,nuff said bout Pros..now,the dissapointments.

1)The AI are still damn F*CKING stupid.Yes,sadly they are.Try getting constricted by a smoker only to see ur AI teammates stand beside u clearing the hordes.Nope,not 1 will help u up,all of 'em will be shooting the zombies while u have a chit chat with the Smoker.They are also very slow in terms of reaction.Sure this can be debated,but considering how fast they shoot and their pin-point accuracy,I find their "good samaritan" spirit to help others rather retarded.They take awhile to notice u getting pounced on,they take even longer to go after the Jockey thats head-humping u. Yes...very very retarded.

2)The dissapointment that VALVe dished out includes the so called A.I. 2.0 that apparently sucks as hard as it's predecessor.VALVe promised weather change and random paths to increased replayability but so far those are exclusive to only The Parish (Garden section) and Hard Rain (Back and forth around sugar mill). A great lie they told to consumers saying that the AI can change weather and waypoints.

3)An AI will rarely use melee weapons.I find that sad as they took an axe and it was bloodless till the finale ending.Occasionally they'll hold it but I guess its juz too precious for them to get blood on it huh? :(

4)Game is buggy.Yes,very! Try standing at a certain point in the safe room and u'll be instantly incapicated.Seriously,theres a lot of bugs including game glitch,errors on zombies etc.The game looked like it was rushed through in haste for the 1 year annivesary of Left4Dead 1.Playtesters weren't much help either as more stuff was suppose to be included but were removed at the urge of those beta testers.My TV was playing a funny sound that sounded like a goat with a bottlecap in its windpipe will loading The Parish for the 1st time.

Overall,I had a nice time slaying 15 witches in the Sugar mill. *Yes,15 goddamn witches* And the Boss infected do spawn more than usual.Watch 2 Hunters work together,2 Smokers high-5 each other when they snapped 2 of your pals etc...the Boss AI's power is potentially near limitless.Sadly,the Human AI had no buff but instead became more retarded from Down syndrome.

The survivors maybe immune to zombie flu shit but are nonetheless paralysed by down syndrome and retardness.I give it a 8.5/10. Worth the buy for Ori? Only if ur a hardcore VALVe freak or Zombie fps geek.Worth the price for Rm10? Hell yeah.

Till then,
I'll get the pics asap ;)

W for Wumbology

I know the title doesnt make sense xD

**Edit relating last post**
I realised the shoe that I was seeking for wasnt called "Platform Shoes".Those are for girls.Lmao~
I think they are called "The Platform thingy shoe that SHINee wear" :D
Cool huh? Maybe I should go check it out in 1U sumtime soon. :)

Anyway,I attended practice as usual and continue my working out and stuff.Brian said we might go and get us some new shirt and stuff for Neorago,the dance. :O

On a totally unrelated note,I find the Pajama Party dance that Soo Young did cute ^-^

Check it out here

I might learn the dance juz for the plain fun of annoying ppl incase I need to use it in the future ;)

Left 4 Dead 2 came out yday.And it was so damn f*cking awesome! I totally spoiled the game for myself before the pirated version came out by watching game videos on Youtube.

Total
F*cking
Awesomeness

3 Badass , 1 Badgirl and 1 town full of son'vabitches ;D

Gundam vs Gundam NEXT PLUS seems to be taking the game to new heights with the inclusion of 2 new suits playable.Hope that'll make an awesome Dec Bday gift for myself :)

The next month is looking good,with GvG NP the game and our Dec 21st performance + KX's return.Kai Xi Hyung,bai lee come back k? *Bai lee is a pronounciation for a Korean word meaning Hurry up* ;D

Till then,
I've always wanted to dance for a girl
I've danced WITH a girl before
But juz not for her
Hmm..

Dreamlist

WANTED
&
OPEN FOR HIRING

I,a dancer from IX am hiring any SHOES and HATS willing to serve under me and accompany me during my lonely dance trainings ;)

Positions offered :

1# Personal Dance Shoe
(Will be used every Friday,Monday,Wednesday,Tuesday,Thursday,Saturday and Sunday as long as theres practice)

Shift work : 24/7 on duty incase I need to dance

Payment : Appearing on dance videos Im in and "fame"

Treatment : Ur new owner will be very kind towards u
*Caution* : During dance practice might overuse the shoe

Appearance wise : Sexy and dark colours please.
*Prefers black*

Height : Platform shoes please,like those the SHINee dudes wear ;)


2# Personal Dance Hat
(Used anytime)

Shift : 24/7 anyday anytime
(Might be called for duty at 3am incase Im practicing then)

Payment : Same as my shoe :D

Treatment : Owner most likely will misplace u,only to panic looking for u minutes before the next practice :X

Appearance wise : Anything trendy and seductive ;D

Come join me and together we shall conquer the dance world TOGETHER!!!
Im willing to hire any shoe or hat thats hot looking ;)

Ps : The shoe and hat ad for recruitment is juz a joke the blogger thought of while thinking bout his bday.In reality he hopes sumone gets those for his bday or sumthing cuz his shoe and hat are all nearly worn out already :X
If a real shoe or hat shows up infront of me talking,I'll scream...

LIKE A GIRL

TEEHEE~

Till then,

Lyriczone

1# Lyrics to SHINee's debut song

"Noona Nomuh Yappeo" / Replay
*Big sister ur beautiful*

Nuna you are so pretty,
All the guys can’t leave you alone
Honestly, I know your unsure feelings
I know my love is one moment, one feeling
But to me, no matter what, this is my life’s everything

Maybe you get worried about our age difference
The gazes you give me tell me this
and I think I’m gonna hate it girl
when the end comes
But your heart will tell you the truth,
regardless of what others say

Nuna you are so beautiful
(Looking at you) I go crazy
(But now I am tired)
replay, replay, replay
Memories swipe at my heart
(It hurts), when will my feelings be fixed
(The ever drawing day of good bye)
replay, replay, replay

Nuna you are my M.V.P
I know your nerves make you still
Because you always listen to what others say
But when I’m with you I feel so cool
‘Never let go of my hand’
is a promise I made to you
I know that it’ll become a lie

Maybe to you, I am a little too boring, too kind
Your body is telling me this
and I think I’m gonna hate it girl
when the end comes
My heart yells in the face of inevitable goodbye

Nuna you are so beautiful
(Looking at you) I go crazy
(But now I am tired)
Make up, Shake up, Break up
Memories swipe at my heart
(It hurts), when will my feelings be fixed
(The ever drawing day of good bye)
Make up, Shake up, Break up

Ah ah, beautiful you
ah ah, I know has yet to taste
Sincere love, I’m sure
Ah ah, Although its such a waste
Ah ah, I know that from me
You can not accept this sincere love?

Nuna you are so beautiful
(Looking at you) I go crazy
(But now I am tired)
replay, replay, replay
Memories swipe at my heart
(It hurts), when will my feelings be fixed
(The ever drawing day of good bye)
replay, replay, replay

Nuna you are so beautiful
(Looking at you) I go crazy
(Uh, Our love)
Crazy, (But now I am tired)
(Uh I just go crazy ‘cuz)
Replay, replay, replay
(I I I love you gurl)
Memories swipe at my heart
(Hurts so much my heart)
(Uh, my heart hurts)
Fix it (The ever drawing day of good bye)
(Yo I wanna hold U girl)
Replay, Replay, Replay
(I I I love you)

Nuna you are so beautiful
(I keep thinkin ’bout you)
Nuna so beautiful
(I keep dreaming ’bout you)
Have you ever tasted sincere love?
Nuna you are so beautiful
(I keep thinkin ’bout you)
Nuna so beautiful
(I keep dreaming ’bout you)
Have you seen sincere love?

So why do they sing Replay? I finally got it....

I need a Replay too..

Till then,

Dancemania

Yo fello homos *Homo-sapiens* ;)

Well,kinda in the mood to share sumthing personal.LMAO.Random much -_-

But it ain't bout my life or others *Lol sry to dissapoint u*
I'll share my dance personality with u and define a few things that are MISUNDERSTOOD by others.

Well frankly I think everyone can dance.No doubt.Its how good u are or how funky u can get catching onto beats and moving,/grooving to it.

I've danced infront of a large audience before however the feel differs when ur on a dance floor swinging.Honestly speaking,u can get high from the cheering and so on.I tried that once during my college years at some party thing.I actually volunteered to go out on stage and strut my stuff alongside 5 other dancers. *Iswan was one of em :) Shhh~*

From my experience,this situations normally require u to feel the beat and catch the rhythm before moving.If u juz move randomly then u got it wrong as u'll run out of moves and soon stop before the music peaks.For me I kinda do light footwork etc or juz move to the beat before going into dance steps.So yeah,SAM college year was a good experience at club dancing and I was fortunate to have another one during Uni.Everyone practically move away from u and form 1 circle,so its kinda pressuring yet fun when u do moves that garner cheering ^-^

I cant really classify my style based on the given types of dance style available.Im kinda stuck between popping,locking and hip-hop a little.I do like funky songs with beats or specific parts where I can solo freestyle to.My Korean friend calls my dance style K-pop-ISH as I do moves normally suited for stage dance. -_-
Types of eg for songs with beat : Love like Oxygen is funky,Juliette is my fav style and BoA's Eat You Up is nice for leg freestyling. *Sadly I cant find any kicks in Ring Ding Dong,haha the dance steps are juz set that way*

Btw,I think SHINee is not a group based on New School Hip Hop.Before then I thought they were new school too.Apparently not once I wiki it.

"The new school was initially characterized in form by drum machine led minimalism, often tinged with elements of rock. It was notable for taunts and boasts about rapping, and socio-political commentary, both delivered in an aggressive, self-assertive style. In image as in song its artists projected a tough, cool, street b-boy attitude."

In other words,what B-boys do nowadays are called New School Hip Hop.Along with taunts etc,being aggresive and pushing in dance battles.

I blieve SHINee belongs to New Jack Swing more though.

"New Jack Swing, or "swingbeat",is a hybrid style popular from the late-1980s into the mid-1990s, which fuses the rhythms, samples and production techniques of hip-hop with the urban contemporary sound of R&B. The new jack swing style developed as many previous R&B styles did, by combining elements of older styles with newer trends. It uses mellifluously soulful solo or harmonizing vocals sung over rhythms and "street" beats derived from urban musical influences"

Thats sumthing I came across researching today..
AND,I happen to like SHINee's dance style as opposed to Suju,TVXQ or other groups

I prefer trendy dance styles and funky beats along with it.I dun think Im more towards stunts.Haha..normal attire for dance floor : A vest,a cap and white shirt will do for me :D

SO which group am I in?
Haha,u be the judge

;)

Till then,
Rocking the beat is good for the soul.Keep dancing for those who do,especially IX
Peace out yo~ ;p

Btw :
Fact 1) SHINee's Juliette is a cover for Deal With It by Cordin Bleau
Fact 2)Love Like Oxygen by SHINee is also a cover for Show the World by Martin Hedegaard
All are awesome la..haha
Random fact : I can use SHINee's dance style for both songs.hehehe ^-^

Check them out on Youtube ;)

Playlist

"So many nights I wonder why
What can I do to make it right
Everything will be alright
So JoJo just tell me why"

-From Jojo,SHINee Year of Us-

How many times have I asked JoJo whats wrong?
I gave her my ears and eyes..
So that she can listen to my words comfort
And see things that will calm her down..
But JoJo..she tried but cudnt find her way back up..
Despite me holding her up,she fell again
I wanted to continue..
But that broke to pieces...
Call me selfish for leaving
Call me childish for dropping hope..
Tell me Im wrong and Im mistaken.
But..
I actually never left..
I only drew a circle around myself
But Im still holding the phone waiting..
Waiting to see how can I help JoJo ease her pain..

***********
1# Y.O.U

-From SHINee,the 3rd mini album Year of Us-

1. Y.O.U Lyric

[Onew] Eojireo-oon shigan sogae neoreul manna eh
I meet you in a chaotic time
Amugeotdo al su eopdeon najiman
Even though I couldn’t understand anything
[Jonghyun] Modu himdeuldago pogiharaneun malae hwana
I become angry at everyone,Telling me to quit because it’s hard
No girl, motnan moseupman hangsang boyeojujiman
No girl, I only show you my foolish side all the time

[Minho] Naye momi bushyeojeodo mami jjikgyeojyeodo
Even if my body breaks,Even if my heart is torn
[Key] Neol jikindaneun yaksok
The promise to protect you
Geu yaksokeun youngweontorok same thing
That promise will eternally be the same thing

[Taemin] Nothing can stop me from loving you, you, you
[Onew] Naega soomeul shwineun geu iyu, you, you
The reason why I breathe is you, you
[Jonghyun] Naega norae haneun geu iyu, you, you
The reason why I sing is you, you
[Key] Naega saraganeun geu iyu, you, you
The reason why I live on is you, you
[Jonghyun] Nothing can stop me from loving
Nothing can stop me from loving

[Key] Wae joeul ddaen gyeotae itdeon saramdeuli
Why is it that the people beside you when it’s good
Hanassik nappeul ddaen dwido boji ango ddeonaji, yeah
Leave one by one without looking back when it’s bad? Yeah
[Taemin] Inganae mameun yurigatchi so weak
Like glass, a human’s heart is so weak
Geureon jakeun ilaedo neomuna apeunji gaseumi
A heart hurts so much from the little things

[Jonghyun] Urin geureoji maljago, sileodo apado
Let’s not be like that,Even if we hate it, even if it hurts
[Onew] Gyeotae itneundan yaksok
The promise to be by your side
Geu yaksokeun youngweontorok same thing
That promise will eternally be the same thing

[Jonghyun] Nothing can stop me from loving you you you
[Minho] Naega dallyeoganeun geu iyu, you, you
The reason why I run is you, you
[Key] Naega choomeul chooneun geu iyu, you, you
The reason why I dance is you, you
[Jonghyun] Naega saraganeun geu iyu, you, you
The reason why I live on is you, you

[Onew] Years will come And years will go
Joeun nal, nappeun naldo
The good days and even the bad days
I’m yours ([Minho] Gippeulddaedo)
I’m yours([Minho] When I’m happy)
I’m yours ([Minho] Seulpeulddaedo)
I’m yours ([Minho] When I’m sad)
I’m yours ([Key] I’m not just saying that)
I’m yours ([Key] I’m trying to show you)

[Onew] Years will come And years will go
Eonjengan neulgeojyeodo
Even when we grow older some day
I’m yours ([Taemin] Gippeulddaedo)
I’m yours ([Taemin] When I’m happy)
I’m yours ([Taemin] Seulpeulddaedo)
I’m yours ([Taemin] When I’m sad)
I’m yours ([Jonghyun] I’m not just saying at)
I’m yours ([Jonghyun] I’m trying to show you, baby)

[Onew] Geureon ileun eopgaetjiman
Something like that might not happen
Ni maeumi byeonhae nal ddeonanda haedo
But even if your heart changes and you leave me
Naneun neol itji mothandaneun geol ala?
Do you know that I won’t be able to forget you?

[Jonghyun] Cause I love you you you
[Onew] Norae haneun iyu, you, you
The reason why I sing is you, you
[Jonghyun] It’s you, you, you
[Key] Nae modeun iyu, you, you, you, you, you
My every reason is you, you, you, you, you

*********************

2# Tired of Waiting

-From 2PM,the 1st Album-

I’m getting tired of waiting
You know
Do you know how I feel?

I’m getting tired of waiting
Do you still remember me?

Even as a day goes by, I can’t forget you
Even if a month goes by, I can’t let you go
Do you know that I still want you?

I’m going crazy while waiting for you
Every single day feels like a year
I’m waiting
I’m getting tired of waiting

It feels like you could come back any second
It feels like I could just turn around and see you
I’m just getting tired, I’m just getting tired

I fall asleep in case I see you
I’m still waiting for you
A month could pass and I wouldn’t forget you
A year could pass and I wouldn’t let you go
Do you know how I feel?

I’m going crazy while waiting for you
Every single day feels like a year
I’m waiting
I’m getting tired of waiting

It feels like you could come back any second
It feels like I could just turn around and see you
I’m just getting tired, I’m just getting tired

{RAP}
My head feels so complicated, I could explode
I’m waiting and waiting but no word from you
There’s no way you could leave because of me
It’s so hard for me right now, so hard for me

I’ll wait even if it’s a year
I’ll wait even if it’s 10 years
I don’t care if I get tired of waiting for you

I’m going crazy while waiting for you
Every single day feels like a year
I’m waiting
I’m getting tired of waiting

It feels like you could come back any second
It feels like I could just turn around and see you
I’m just getting tired, I’m just getting tired

Update

1)Played dota till 6am yday...absolutely crazy I know.
Felt like a dead zombie.I did that after practicing Its You and totally crashed today.

2)Driving 2moro -_-
Can I bring a hammer to smash the car ah?
Lousy manual car ):

3)Abnormal eating habit stopped.
But might continue tomoro x)

4)Its You practice going well for me,not too hard if I really focus.
Fighting! :)

Pincer

Sinful temptations? Ever met them face to face before?

Eating ice cream while knowing ur on a diet,only to regret it later on is one such example.Or..it could be used for other situations as well.

Like doing sumthing without thinking twice,letting loose how u feel only to become hollow internally 15 mins later.

I practically left the game I was in,unable to continue..and I felt my eyes swollen with guilt.I didnt know what I was doing and for once wondered where I am.

I fell for a pincer,did sumthing totally not needed only to get snapped in now.

Great...

Major bullshit I brought on myself juz for 5 secs of sarcasm-feel-good~
Sinful temptation indeed..

A coverage for this group ^^

Name : Ignition-X
IGNITION-zero + falcon X = Ignition-X

Age : 3 years,including training prior to debut *2006 late october-present*

Members :
Brian Chin
Ian Kam
Fang Kai
Me
Wei Jian
Kai Xi
Pang Yean
Nicky

Trademarks : Being last minute,being lame,being random,being TOTALLY random and having fun.

1st official dance training :
Late October right after TVXQ released the 3rd album,O-Jung.Ban.Hab
Initial scouting for members were carried out roughly after Mlm Bakat's performance involving Rising Sun during mid 2006.
After all 5 members were found to reprise the role and position of DBSK,scheduled training ran every Friday after class till 5+pm.

Practice spot :
Formerly a hse,now Bu3 :D

Performances :
2007 O-Jung.Ban.Hab competition at Sg.Wang (Our 1st debut actually)
2007 Mlm Bakat (Our official debut)
2007 1 Utama BU Merdeka carnival
2007 Form5 prom,featuring X-man Intro+Rising Sun and O remixed.
2008 *Break*
2009 Mlm Bakat,Sorry Sorry + Intro
*Soon* 2009 Prom,It's You+Intro
Future Hehehe... xD

From my eyes :

#1 Brian Chin
Position : Leader,and elder Hyung (In terms of position in the group,using a respectable tone)
Specialty : Learning dance steps,choreography,copy machine
Nicknames : Dance king?,*Speechless*
Current love interest : Sunny (Lol)
Hobby : Snapping ppl's face when at sleepover :X
Approachable and friendly.His arms are wide enough to shelter all members with attention :)

#2 Ian Kam
Position : Choreographer and Idea machine,remixer for songs
Specialty : Remixing? :D
Nickname : Squid
Hobby : Bringing IX to mamak <= LOL..hahaha,Indomie ftw :D A brotherly figure in the group.A voice of wisdom sumtimes. #3 Fang Kai
Position : Animation and mood lifter (Lame jokes,haha)
Specialty : The power to create Lame using anything word or topic,being lame,tricking ppl
Nicknames : Lame king,lame god,lame etc,FunGi x)
Hobby : Football,football cards,watching football
Current love interests : Seohyun + Jessica <= Greedy boy xP Friendly,pls prepare a sweater before u talk to him :D #4 Me :O
Position : Pose,walking and footwork..?
Specialty : Being tricked by Fang Kai,being tricked by IX lol..
Nicknames : Ernie,penguin boy,wushu boy,short
Hobby : K-pop spamming on iTunes,wushu
Currently in a love triangle with : Brian and Sunny :D
Trivia : Fang Kai and Kai Xi once bet on this during our Highschool days
=> Who can trick me the most number of times.1st to 10 wins... guess who won.LOL

#5 Wei Jian
Position : Invicible
Specialty : Teleportation,becoming invisible,appearing then dissapearing
Nickname : Ninja
Hobby : Playing with Nanchuks
Long love interest : Chess
Thanks for fetching us back Wei Jian T_T

#6 Kai Xi
Position : Learning MVs? xD
Specialty : Being a panda,doing "Panda rawr",doing "Panda movement and attacks"
Nickname : Panda xP
Hobby : Playing Raving Rabbits?
Sudden love interest : SNSD
COMEBACK QUICK! -_-

#7 Pang Yean
Position : Stuntman
Specialty : Handstand,some going down movement thingy... @_@
Nickname : N/A (lol)
Hobby : Holding his phone,playing CS

#8 Nicky
Position : Copy machine ver.2
Specialty : On the spot copying D:
Nickname : N/A
Cute kid and the maknae (Youngest) of the group.Certainly have his share of aegyo charms by acting cute.

Hope this tells u a little more bout us,for those who are new to IX ^-^

Btw,why am I reiterating facts that some already know? Bcuz I thought of everyone of u.
Every goddamn one of u that hogged my mind till I cudnt sleep at 4am ...LOL.
Imagine thinking bout 7 dudes in ur head and all the wonderful time we had since the training days..
I wanna find those back,and return with proper feelings to when there was ntg in my head but performances...

Till then,

Boombox

*Does a deep breath*

Kla..here it goes.Seriously gonna use a lot of Hokkien broken english style and express my view on dance. *lmao*

*Drumroll...using chicken drumstick* :D

I've been blasting It's You on my iTunes all day..well actually hor,nearly all day la.But I secretly used Windows Music Player to play it while listening to other songs.So technically...Im watching It's You dance ver. while listening to other songs.. -___- *Im cheating myself lol*

I juz cant stand the song la..not bcuz of the vocals or music.But Im kinda diu lan with the emoness from the song.. *LMAO* Yeah..beh tahan la.Gonna kee xiao soon d. ):
I can dance to anything la,sexy song,lame song,pop or hip hop/ r&B *I love that* or ANYTHING LA... except dancing to emo songs OR....

ACTING

E
M
O

*while dancing*

Lol..dun mistaken that statement.I can act emo anytime. ANYTIME..while dreaming,emo.While bathing,emo with the shower head.While eating,emo with chopsticks.While driving the manual car,emo with the clutch and car jerking. ANYTHING but emo songs la.I'd juz blow up,fuze back to atoms and evaporate into oblivion. *Haha...too kua chiong d ba..*

I juz cant be emo while dancing.Emo got different stages lor.Not the kind of emo from songs like Ring Ding Dong..that wan called COOL EMO. Lol~ This one emo feels emo-ish la.See the MV also I feel like flushing my head down a toilet bowl. =X *Pls dun bash me Suju fans,I <3>

Soooo~ whats the point of my post this time?

This : The MAIN reason why my mind and soul refuse to learn It's You PROPERLY.
I can do it..my soul juz told me not to.And my brain agreed on it without listening to me. -_-

Chammm lorrrrr... This Monday,Wed and Friday got schedule..how arh? GEE GEE LORRRRR

I'm so dead....can't we do Replay,Juliette,Ring Ding Dong or even SHUper Girl ah? TT_TT

Which fella asked for It's You while we planned for Juliette ah? ):

Seriously,its a prom and u guys seeing each other for last time *Some of u*
U guys want an emo song meh,spoil mood only ):

Buttttt~
Since its a request,we'll go on

Be ready for our perf on Dec
And look forward to me emo-ing

Till then xD
Here's to a month's hardwork and emo-ing during each practice..
Mock emo-ing -_-
Hope I dun really emo after the dance practice =X