Disturbia

Apparently...

I've yet to have meet ppl who really disgust me,not till today

I thought the puzzle set I bought was completed..
Not till I found extras that will fit in to the picture.


Seems like this person is a major in fuckology.

Some ppl are so disgusting,u juz can't bear to see why God left them on this planet

Theres always the wolf and the sheep

I'd fucking kill all the wolfs if I have to

The next time u and me talk,I'll call u fucko for the way u behave
Leeching on my life


Friend? No...ur worst than an animal.

Is there no one on this fucking goddamn planet that I can trust
Oh yeah,there is no fucking goddamn human I can trust

Touch the Sky

The Narcissus

The Holly

December

In Latin,Decem means 10.December is represented by 2 plants : The Narcissus and Holly.

Narcissus : The name of this plant comes from 2 myths.One is that of the youth of Greek mythology called Narcissus,became so obsessed with his own reflection as he kneeled and gazed into a pool of water that he fell into the water and drowned. In some variations, he died of starvation and thirst from just sitting by the edge of the pool until he gave out, gazing at his reflection until he died.

Holly : A plant commonly linked to Christmas.

The birthstone for December is Zircon and blue turquoise.While the birthplant of December is the toxic plant known as the Christmas Star.

Sagittarius (♐)

Known as the 9th astrological sign in the Zodiac.The element is Fire and they are under the Mutable sign category.

Mutable Sign :
Mutable signs are associated with change and versatility. Individuals born under the four mutable quality signs are thought to be adaptable, impressionable, sharp, sympathetic, communicative,resourceful and restless, with a gift for seeing both sides of a situation at the same time and an immense desire for knowledge, variety and new ideas.

They supposedly adapt very well to new situations, possess much flexibility, seldom have any particular agenda and are perfectly happy to fill in an assigned role. However, they are also said to be inconsistent, changeable, nervous, indecisive and irresponsible, with a tendency to get wrapped up in tiny particulars. There is also a certain duality associated with all the mutable quality signs.

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December is pretty much on its way here while Im typing this.But besides the Gundam game coming out on the 3rd,Im not looking forward to any shit.I dun see any spark in December and I ain't got the mood.There's juz not much anticipation after so many years of me celebrating my bday minimally.

This 10th Dec I'll probably be busy celebrating else where and performing at the same time.So I can't really dedicate 10th to u guys,sry...I got a lot of performances coming up till January and I have to fulfill my responsibilty to the temple.

Reflecting on the past mth,I kinda got tangled in many cross fire.Namely I still find it hard to forgive my Dad.And I'm still stuck occasionally on the previous crisis.I find it hard to let go,but after re-telling the whole shyt,I find myself trotting on the right path.And I hope to never look back.Some things are juz meant to be.And as I said,they are really meant to be left untouched,be it human or event.I'm able to stare at the blue sky and wonder what makes it blue now.Without actually feeling blue.. Besides,I feel stupid and retarded feeling sry for that kind of craptastic story.

I may appear angry,frustrated or restless.True,my heart seems a little jumpy cuz of the events and things happening.But Im juz plain dissed when ppl pop in unnecessary lines.Sumtimes juz seeing who says what is enough to make u scrunch ur lip up.Its that annoying.

I ain't in for any big surpise shyt either.I hate surprises.I've said it once,and I'll say it again.If its good then I don't mind.But most of the time its bad : eg. IX,today's practice cancelled! When im already half way there. -_-

Lastly,I find it ironic how some feel poked by my personal msg or shout out.Be it if its not related to u,asking is fine.But feeling a pinch?Whoever eats chilli feels the heat.Ain't mah fault ur feeling that way.Probably ur conscience reminding u of history based on what u read at present.Again I ain't addressing this to anyone,if u felt a nudge based on what u read its YOUR own problem.

1 year goes by,and Im much deeper in thoughts and actions.Ntg big to be proud of.I juz want 10th to be normal.BUT... I didnt say I'll forsake company.If u wanna celebrate sure.Its always good to have nice souls around me..

But seriously,I dun see it that grant.I was thought that way from young..
Juz having a meal and bday wishes is enough for me.
Juz lemme see what colour ur hearts are..

Mine is sky blue now..

What bout ur heart?

Till then,

Talk To You

SHINee mini album : Romeo

"Talk To You" Translation

[Key] S H I N double E
You gonna get it to my ride

[Minho] Wherever I go, everyone’s gaze turns to my attention
You get pulled in by just one charm
They all stop in place, move on
Pass! My indescribable f-f-feelings towards the girl that stole my heart

[Onew] Listen to what I have to say now
[Key] You might not be interested, since many men talk like this
[Jonghyun] Not gonna hurt you, open your heart for a moment
[Taemin] If I let you go without saying anything
[Onew] I feel like I won’t be able to see you again, so I gather up the courage

[All] The rush of my beating heart
Everything in this moment is in a hush
Together with the music
[Onew] Let me talk to you

*[All] I really liked you, it was just that
I don’t need anything else, baby, I want to know you
You took all of my heart
[Jonghyun] I like the way you talk
Listen, baby girl, to my beating heart

[Taemin] Come and dance with me
Give your body into the music, all right
[Key] You act as if you don’t care, but I like it
[Onew] This magical attraction talks to my body
[Jonghyun] The drum & bass hit your heart
And like a flowing melody, it sings us a song
[Minho] (And) Let the beat drop

[All] The rush of my beating heart
Everything in this moment is in a hush
Together with the music
[Jonghyun] Let me take the lead

*(Repeat)

[Onew] Will you let me listen to your sweet song?
[Taemin] A captivating melody
[Jonghyun] Hearing a song for the first time is unfamiliar
[Key] But I’m already used to it
[Jonghyun] We are meant to be

*(Repeat x2)

[Key] Why are you trying to steal her heart?
There’s no way she’d fall for you
Temptation is lacking some holic
([Jonghyun] I know you wanna be with me)
[Minho] Stop your misunderstanding
With just one glance, you can tell I’m superior
[Key] But that’s just your fantasty
The only one holding the key to her heart is me
[Minho] But reality is different
Don’t underestimate the power of the charisma in my heart
Don’t worry about it anymores

Wait...I dunnid that.Add a Don't and change it to Me pls

Till then,

Paper planes

*Paper planes*

Absent minded,they fly
Cutting through,they pass by
Fearless,not asking why
Marching on,till the wind dies..

Clinging onto believe
Nothing in mind,but to achieve..
Though the front,none but a cliff
Possesed,they chase a myth

Giving all they have
Till none is left
To others,they are deaf
Only her in mind,thats left

Paper planes fly
Right up to the sky
They go on till thou die
Then on the ground,they cry

Paper planes are pretty much like human experience and emotions.When u fold one,u project ur emotions into it.How u fold and design ur plane reflects ur attitude and how serious u are in building them.Some choose crafty designs,while others focus on perfect folding and creases..

Right after that,when u finally comfirm ur happy with ur design,u throw them out and hope the wind will carry them high.U cast those emotions on others in hopes of a connection.Sadly,some let the wind carry them too high.And become drifted in airspace,possesed by the will to fly futher and dive deeper towards their goal.They become lost souls,enveloped in the feeling of flight.They can no longer see truth and are deaf to others.

Paper planes fly straight when thrown.Much like how we felt initially before we are possesed by our own goals and intentions.However when in air,a paper plane might deviate from its course and wind up somewhere else.They might turn around,they might fly towards either sides or they might crash.


My paper plane deviated,and landed back in my palms.

Im glad it did anyway..
It would've been shit if it crashed..

Hows ur paper plane flying?

Till then,

The big table of ABC

Once upon a time~
I woke up with that image in my head
I can't really say I know what it means,but it certainly does look familiar to sumthing I know
A=>B but B=>C,and God knows what C got in mind.
The ending was A still hugging onto dreams bout B
And A couldn't forget anything despite B being trouble
The End

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Miscommunication is usually the root of problems.I find it ignorant when some ppl have up to 3 mths to confirm and inform us about the situation and yet didn't double check with us.Maybe they forgot or it was SPM but they could do it much better and well arranged.The moment they ask for our hand in the agreement,they should have told us all the conditions and flaws.Yet we were told after our training schedule went on the way...great.Now who's the one having a tough time deciding.

And yet I find life being bitter at times when we're forced to walk down a certain path not wanted due to a majority vote.Much like mindless sheeps being led by a guard dog,we're pretty much powerless.The majority win vote is always superior as opposed to the "I think this is correct" mindset.Intriguing but true..

Yet today I woke up to such a scenario.The fate of our team whether we'll go on or not depends on how we interpret such a scenario.Too desperate to perform till we're willing to pay,or Rm50 being worth for a buffet and us working out a sweat for some cheers and claps. One or the other?

I hate this kind of "Choose one only" situations..Usually no one's gonna be completely happy,not when it involves money.Considering my current family situation,I can't be flowing green papers from my wallet all time now.Im torn between being a traitor and being a mindless sheep.. -_-

But I do hope we can solve this.Dun get me wrong,I do wanna perform and any chance given is pretty much welcomed.However when it involves us giving money to them yet performing?I figure we could juz dance there then get out as soon as possible,that'd be nice,no? I dun think Rm50 for prom buffet is gonna be a Yes for me.Its simply not worth it.. Besides,we barely know the whole group of 'em.And its their prom,why will we be sitting among them for a meal? Besides the intention to "kao lui" and "dance+get h/p number" I dun see any reason why sumone is so willing to fork out Rm50 for that. Sorry to say,thats my take. Human relation> Hotel buffet +Rm50? Not.Worth.It

This is gonna be ugly.

Whatever the group's decision is..I'll respect it.
But pls,dun think I willingly fork out Rm50 while working out a sweat to show u a dance
Im juz being a sheep

'We're Kings of the World' as quoted from Ellis from Left 4 Dead 2

Ignoring the fact that my past post was screwed,Im gonna give the green lights to myself and review Left 4 Dead 2.If u dun wanna be spoiled then dun read on.No pics at the moment but I'll snap a few when I can later on tonight.Enjoy~ :)

Left 4 Dead 2
Retail price : Rm 250 for Xbox 360 and most likely the same for PC *Yeah,its crappo*
*Cough cough version retail price comes at Rm10 per piece and is available at the Atria gamestation,Gamepoint*

Released : 17th Nov 2009 by VAVLe and plays as 1st person or 3rd person thru console command

Whats new :
5 new campaigns
a)Dead Center *Mall/shopping complex style campaign* 1-4 stage
b)Dark Carnival *Basically a carnival with an awesome finale,the best by far* 1-5 stage
c)Swamp Fever *Jungle type* 1-4 stage
d)Hard Rain *Shud be renamed as Hard Shit,this stage is difficult* 1-5 stage
e)The Parish *French quarter apartments anyone? :) * 1-5 stage

4 New survivors (Coach,Rochelle,Nick and Ellis)

A new scavenge mode where u actually look for gas cans to fill up a certain machine to win
*Er...ok....this doesnt really appeal to me in my humble opinion,playing with AI? No thx.Always go for multiplayer.*

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Right,for u all grumpy out there the REAL review starts now

I've tried Dead Center,Dark Carnival and a little of The Parish.Generally speaking,the stages are really creative and well constructed.Graphic is a little upgraded compared to L4D 1.My Xbox had to install some sort of graphic upgrade b4 it will run thus explaining the improved graphic.
The zombies look rather 'fresh'.Shoot em in the tummy if u wanna see their ribcage.If u wondered how humans look like fleshwise from the back then go ahead ;) Using melee will slice their heads of CLEAN and if u aim for the tummy,watch their guts spill out Harakiri style.
The story is kinda present now rather than in L4D 1 where u dun even know where the eff did Bill or Francis come from.The campaigns start off well and are linked hence enhancing the story.

Much like the Bill<==>Francis Hate and vice versa,we have the Coach vs Nick vs Ellis hate.The lines are hillarious and funny especially when Nick uses sarcasm during reply lines.Though the relationship could've been further hyped up much like in L4D 1,I do hope VALVe adds more connection between them during future FREE Downloadable Content. :/

Weapons are interesting and well balanced for Versus mode and Scavenge mode online gameplay.There's no 'imba weapon of godly destruction' in L4D2.U either get high firepower for long reload time,low firepower but fast fire rates or standard power with burst shots etc etc..
Very well done I must say.I do have a hard time choosing between the 3 rifles given at the same location and it very much boils down to ur preference.

The new boomer bile jar while fun to use does have risky prospects as players need to take care of the 'summoned infected' once the effect is over.The chest paddles/defibrilator is also known as the mobile closet where u can revive ur teammate within roughly 25 secs.Revived player gains 50 permanent hp.Melee weapons also vaary in swing speed,damage and swing arc so choose carefully.My favourite is none other than the guitar and pan.The axe is nice too xD

Alright,nuff said bout Pros..now,the dissapointments.

1)The AI are still damn F*CKING stupid.Yes,sadly they are.Try getting constricted by a smoker only to see ur AI teammates stand beside u clearing the hordes.Nope,not 1 will help u up,all of 'em will be shooting the zombies while u have a chit chat with the Smoker.They are also very slow in terms of reaction.Sure this can be debated,but considering how fast they shoot and their pin-point accuracy,I find their "good samaritan" spirit to help others rather retarded.They take awhile to notice u getting pounced on,they take even longer to go after the Jockey thats head-humping u. Yes...very very retarded.

2)The dissapointment that VALVe dished out includes the so called A.I. 2.0 that apparently sucks as hard as it's predecessor.VALVe promised weather change and random paths to increased replayability but so far those are exclusive to only The Parish (Garden section) and Hard Rain (Back and forth around sugar mill). A great lie they told to consumers saying that the AI can change weather and waypoints.

3)An AI will rarely use melee weapons.I find that sad as they took an axe and it was bloodless till the finale ending.Occasionally they'll hold it but I guess its juz too precious for them to get blood on it huh? :(

4)Game is buggy.Yes,very! Try standing at a certain point in the safe room and u'll be instantly incapicated.Seriously,theres a lot of bugs including game glitch,errors on zombies etc.The game looked like it was rushed through in haste for the 1 year annivesary of Left4Dead 1.Playtesters weren't much help either as more stuff was suppose to be included but were removed at the urge of those beta testers.My TV was playing a funny sound that sounded like a goat with a bottlecap in its windpipe will loading The Parish for the 1st time.

Overall,I had a nice time slaying 15 witches in the Sugar mill. *Yes,15 goddamn witches* And the Boss infected do spawn more than usual.Watch 2 Hunters work together,2 Smokers high-5 each other when they snapped 2 of your pals etc...the Boss AI's power is potentially near limitless.Sadly,the Human AI had no buff but instead became more retarded from Down syndrome.

The survivors maybe immune to zombie flu shit but are nonetheless paralysed by down syndrome and retardness.I give it a 8.5/10. Worth the buy for Ori? Only if ur a hardcore VALVe freak or Zombie fps geek.Worth the price for Rm10? Hell yeah.

Till then,
I'll get the pics asap ;)

W for Wumbology

I know the title doesnt make sense xD

**Edit relating last post**
I realised the shoe that I was seeking for wasnt called "Platform Shoes".Those are for girls.Lmao~
I think they are called "The Platform thingy shoe that SHINee wear" :D
Cool huh? Maybe I should go check it out in 1U sumtime soon. :)

Anyway,I attended practice as usual and continue my working out and stuff.Brian said we might go and get us some new shirt and stuff for Neorago,the dance. :O

On a totally unrelated note,I find the Pajama Party dance that Soo Young did cute ^-^

Check it out here

I might learn the dance juz for the plain fun of annoying ppl incase I need to use it in the future ;)

Left 4 Dead 2 came out yday.And it was so damn f*cking awesome! I totally spoiled the game for myself before the pirated version came out by watching game videos on Youtube.

Total
F*cking
Awesomeness

3 Badass , 1 Badgirl and 1 town full of son'vabitches ;D

Gundam vs Gundam NEXT PLUS seems to be taking the game to new heights with the inclusion of 2 new suits playable.Hope that'll make an awesome Dec Bday gift for myself :)

The next month is looking good,with GvG NP the game and our Dec 21st performance + KX's return.Kai Xi Hyung,bai lee come back k? *Bai lee is a pronounciation for a Korean word meaning Hurry up* ;D

Till then,
I've always wanted to dance for a girl
I've danced WITH a girl before
But juz not for her
Hmm..