My sunflower

"My sunflower~"

My sunflower is bright..
She tells me whats right.
And makes sure I'm alright..
She's precious,always in my sight.

Have u seen my sunflower?
She is my lover..
I'll do all thats within my power,
To look for her.

My sunflower beams proudly,
Whenever I show my love for her
She opens up brightly
And I feel warm and comfortable all over..

Have u seen my sunflower?
My thoughts ran all over..
My feelings true to her,forever
I want to protect her.

Time pass by,my dear Sunflower..
I held on strong and firmly believed
We will be united soon,however..
I want to see ur bright smile heaved.

Fear not,my Sunflower..
The sun will shine once more..
Time itself will not stop our endeavour
To meet and embrace once more.

My Sunflower be brave!
Ur love is all I crave.
So go out,and seek forth those challenges
Cut forth a future,be relentless..

Have u seen my sunflower?
Not anymore?
Bcuz she is mine forever.
Always withing my heart,united once more.

Have u seen my sunflower?

she is always in my heart. cuz it shines brightly,knowing that she is there for me.. Time is nothing more than a temporary obstacle. I miss her a lot,and a lot has happen. It is time..to make it happen.

Till then

The silent symphony

The Silent Symphony
A collection of 4 simple poems/riddles

#1 "The Queen of Hearts"

Like the piano,she plays..
And like the piper,she seduce..
A foul smell from a mile away.
It reeks of the poison she use


The lake mirrors a reflection..
Regardless to where she run..
Clouded and blinded by intention
The lake blackens under the sun


A forest with two paths..
Yet she walks none..
Fragile and cruel,she laughs..
I have tempted,yet remain as one


A queen of hearts
To the delight of men,full of charm
The piper nails them like darts,
For they see her do no harm.


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#2 "The chair"

In the corner of my mind..
I see you sitting with a glass of wine,
In the corner of my mind..
I see you holding something once mine.


Though masked and majestically poised,
You deceive no one..
Though masked and majestically poised,
Your actions speak for all u've done.


From my eyes..
I see a glass of chardonnay,
From ur eyes..
I see a kind soul,twisted away


From my heart..
I see a light fading fast..
From ur heart..
The decision u have yet to cast.


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#3 "A play for Fools"

To be loved or love?
Fools drown themselves
For they see no one else
Somehow obvious to ourselves..

To be loved or love?
Fools give it all away
Yet they are still fools..
For they are nothing but actors..in a play.

To be loved or love?
A well executed charade
Became the temptation,a bait
Fools ignore the words said.

To be loved or love?
All that is fake has vanish
Now thats left is to perish
There is nothing more to cherish..


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#4 "The distant Sonata"

I watched u walked alone..
My back turned,I said farewell
For the future,no one could have known..
Ur shadow disappeared,as well.


I watched u suffer,in darkness..
Yet I shower myself with hope
For ur future,be filled with brightness
The burden I thought,U could cope.


I heard u sank down in despair..
Yet I sat there watching
We watched,unaware..
That ur light is already disappearing.


I saw ur thoughts all tangled..
Yet I refused,any participation
Enough is enough..

The time is now.

Sonatas are normally played in the same key,however if something remains off key forever..


Till then

Their own paths

"Their own paths"


A friend once said..
The road I choose
Will require no aid..
For I have nothing to lose.


Said friend walked on..
Into the sunset long gone..
A worried look remained..
When will we see him,again?


Pardon me Young Lady~
Did he past u already?
My friend I seek..
Full of lies,u reek.


What have u done?
In his heart,that light gone..
Once pure and sincere..
Now despair,is all thats clear.


An abyss full of lies..
All that awaits,
Is never ending cries..
How long,will u have him as bait?

My lady..for u are the poison
The young lad's very reason,
To seek forth ur love..
But,Lies and deceit lie above.


When will we see that same sunset together again,ol' friend?



That look in ur eyes,no longer the same.

I cry watching the sand blown around as the wind toys with it..

The path of Pain

"The strength behind ur back.."

Friends..

Are those who will fight along ur side..

Are those who will give u a hand when u nid it..

Are those who will dust off ur shirt and pants when u fall..

Are those who will ask u..Does it hurt? And where?

Are those who will help u unconditionally..

Are those who will never question loyalty,but instead do things where he/she sees fit..

Are those who do something good,but expect ntg back in return..


Are those who truly care for u..and thus will do anything to protect u..



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"Love,reality's own coffee.. Ur soul is addicted to~"

Lovers

Are those who love u unconditionally.. There's no pre-requisite requirements.

Are those who truly felt a spark when they first met u,and have since then blieved in fate and destiny..

Are those who will never try to hurt u no matter what,they cry when u hurt urself bcuz the pain they felt is 3 times the pain u felt..

Are those who are always concern for u,they will help u no matter what..

Are those who will understand u no matter what..they will always think from ur side and imagine how things are like for u..before making a move.

Are those who will cry when they see u trouble,a slight sign of danger is all it takes to trigger genuine and sincere tears..

Are those who love u for who u are..if not,why start dating u? They won't ever complain and ask their partner to change.. After all what attracted them to u is who u really are. If ur asked to change,it defeats the purpose of falling in love..

Are those who will never give u trouble,they'd walk the extra mile as long as it means they get to see u smile at the end..


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Lovers have the potential to be ur soul mate,but its not necessary and not confirmed that they are..


Know this..despair is never part of the Love vocabulary. Bcuz if ur partner truly loves u..they will never leave u that way.


A girl/guy that truly loves u,will not consider ur background or merely take u out and lead u on just bcuz ur the best there is for now. But rather fall in love with u gradually and naturally for the way u are.

Not everyone has this six sense in love..

But..

When u truly like someone..u'd realise u tend to do things for that person.

Sometimes u may not say it out,but ur actions speak louder than words..
So what if u dun talk more,does it mean that ur less better than a jerk who lies a lot and talks more than u?

Sometimes it may not be obvious..but ur tone when talking shows ur worried..

Sometimes it may hurt,but the things u say are for his/her own good..

Sometimes it may be hard to do,but u'll always figure a way to hold him/her close to u.
Theres no nid for pre-written scripts. Ur not acting in a drama so don't kid urself by thinking of what to say before hand. U shud be comfortable talking bout anything under the sun cuz this might very well be the girl u'll spend ur life with.

No one writes the script for ur love life..ever.

No one tells u what to do next or determines ur phase..

Bcuz no one can write out ur future and happiness..

True happiness is a right everyone deserves..




"Are u still smiling like how the 1st time she told u she love u?

It may start sweet..but how bout now?

Is it still holding up well? How is ur partner doing,and how is he/she supporting u when ur in a difficult situation?"

All these matters,cuz love is not always sweet.
Its like coffee,bitter cuz reality is a bitch and will always throw an obstacle ur way..

But that satisfaction ur soul gets,the taste of companionship is sweet.. Only the select few can run a relationship that is well balanced,and only them will understand how love really taste like.

U determine it urself,its one of those love stories u write now. And will eventually be passed on to ur kids as a story of how u and ur partner met.

Till then~

If a Tree falls..does it make a sound?

"If a Tree falls does it make a sound?"
Is meant as a riddle that raises question regarding observation and knowledge in reality.

What determines whether a context posted is within the acceptable frames of reality? What determines whether the structure of a sentence said or written has no hidden forms of deceit within them?


**Upon stepping into my blog,u have already agreed that u are to read the following materials published here and not have an opposing view on it,basically because its my blog. If u can't accept it,go else where. These are my views,theres no need to get upset because ur view differ. I do however accept constructive discussion though. However if ur intentions are to get red and angry at me,I'm afraid to say that u shud take things lightly and view life in a different angle. Cuz these are my thoughts. Who are u to disagree on them? Lastly,I blog to tell out my personal view on life. I dun scrutinize people specifically. My blog is not a ranting spot bout some jerk that destroyed my life.**

So...u agree? Alright. Let us proceed then.

We shall discuss this in the following article below :

I'll do a little story telling before I proceed.

Once upon a time *Argh,screw this shit*
In Arab,there was a renown artist that painted on dried animal skin and sold the portraits for high prices. His art was famous across the land.

Recently,he completed a painting of a girl.
Life-like and beautiful,yet alluring and was one painting that would tinker with the human mind. *Think of Mona Lisa,many still wonder till date is it a Man/Woman*

The next day,the art was unveiled to the public at an exhibition..

But many were surprised.

"Is that an angel?" One said.
"Nah it can't be,I saw the Devil in it!" Yelled a man from across the Square.

Discussion occur and rumor spreaded like wild fire that the artist painted a picture filled with different influences to temper with the human mind. And that it was a dastardly picture. None could really tell whether the picture portayed 1)A Human 2) An Angel or 3) A devil.

And no one would buy the painter's argument.

"But I am but a painter! I paint for a living! I draw every of my art with sincerity and produce such arts to impress u all. There was no such thought of drawing anything else while I was painting. It was and will always be strictly a painting..of a girl!"

His arguments fell upon deaf ear. No one would listen to a liar.

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U see..this was the case that happen most recently. I'm not gonna beat around the bush. Rather,I will approach this method systematically.

1)The painter merely painted the picture. Had no intentions of drawing anything else in mind. He merely painted what he imagined in his mind during that time (An image of a girl). All in all,it was painting.

2)The people saw it differently. They saw the picture as anything other than what it was portraying. Some saw it as good (The angel) while others saw it as bad (The devil).

3)The people lost track of the main focus in this scenario. What was the painter painting? A girl. But it was individual perception that draw them closer into thinking that the painter was manipulating the people and tricking them with mind illusions.

The story above basically summed up a small misunderstanding that happen. You see,as a painter..I paint honest pictures from the fabric of reality. From the very eyes I use to see,I describe them carefully and mainly translate them properly. I did not add any spices,or extra ingredients. It was what I saw,and my very account and experience. Crystal clear,and honest..

So,if u were to see my depictions of an event that occur wrongly..were it to be my fault for portraying it wrongly? Hopefully no offense taken..but isn't what I'm depicting the truth? Its reality. I didn't change a bit of it. I didn't add additional stories to make it look nicer right? Its factual.. Concrete proof.

So if this is the case,why would the words deceive..betrayal and backstab be used?

Does anyone even know what backstab means?

Backstab (Betrayal) :is the breaking or violation of a presumptive contract, trust, or confidence that produces moral and psychological conflict within a relationship amongst individuals, between organizations or between individuals and organizations.(Wiki,shit source I know)

To backstab someone,u have to have some sort of emotional bridge linked with the other person. U have to know him/her. Problem is...I know nothing. So how does this qualify under betrayal/backstabbing? The statement is therefore rejected.

In order to backstab..there must be a lie/deceit spreaded to cause mistrust and hence betrayal among 2 people/a group of people. Contradicting to that,I merely painted out fractions of reality in my depiction of events. I never once added anything extra or out of context. Not a pinch of my personal view on the matter. Nothing. I stated facts and for that was condemned a betrayer. I spoke the truth which I've seen from my own eyes..and re-translated them onto a new form to be explored by others. So why am I,for that a backstabber? Who really has a grasp of reality now?

"Lets say ur school suddenly had a new student. And it was made known that this new student,A had a bad history record. If I said that Person A was a school bully last time that had a bad school record to another fellow student (who was absent during the announcement) on a pretext of warning my fellow friends to be careful, Am I backstabbing Person A?"

Why so if u answered yes? What trust have I betrayed?
I was merely stating the truth am I not? And there was no consequences to be held against me because it was the truth and nothing but the truth.

That was an example of my case. I was the one telling my other friends to be careful of Student A. I painted nothing but the truth but was mentioned a backstabber indirectly. Though the jab wasn't brutal to the heart,but I felt uncomfortable and pondered. Why am I a backstabber? In what way have I betrayed anyone?

Then I came up with the reasoning (The story about the painted and the girl picture).

If a person was to speak about another,but the words spoken were of nothing but the truth..despite it being an ugly truth...why is this consider an act of betrayal/backstabbing? No matter how u try to change it,its the truth. Despite it being a bad and ugly truth. Something ridiculous and nonsensical, u can't change it bcuz its a FACT. And stating facts to another person contradicts the act of betrayal because lies,deceit and gossip are spreaded to cause mistrust.

U can't have backstabbing if u merely spoke of facts right? Bcuz there is ntg to argue. There is no way that a person can deny that,bcuz its a fact..fullstop.

Sometimes we talk and communicate,till we lost track of reality and the things we see with our own eyes. For eg. Take the story about the arabic painter above. Whats reality? The painting is of a girl. No matter what its a painting. But what do u see? Could be anything but the girl.

As for the concept of betrayal,speaking of the truth never will account for betrayal of trust. NOT at least when u still do not have any trust or contract linked to the other person. I have no link with the other person (Eg. B),so no matter what it will never be an act of betrayal. Bcuz I had no contract and emotional bond to this person. Hence it will not trigger any sentimental bias or trauma feedback that I'm betraying sumone else.

So..all in all,does speaking about a person whom u have no link to whatsoever count as betrayal?

The ans to my argument is No. Because I share no emotional bond,am not tied down emotionally and chained mentally to the contract of trust. Therefore if I were to breached it,I will definitely feel no emotional trauma or psychological remorse. For I speak the truth. All in all,its the truth.
Take it.

If I paint a story for ur ears,and I added not a pinch of my personal views on it..would u consider that also to be of bias in terms of sentimental values?

The ans for me is No. Basically cuz I didn't add any form of personal view in it. The story portrayed is in its raw form. I didn't alter it I didn't change anything. So why should I be crowned a Bias Bastard that Paints other people Evil?

I posted this not for the sake of annoying people. But rather to speak my mind freely as I wish. I express it here so if by all means u feel like taking out ur hse wall in one punch,kindly leave my blog then do it.

Lastly,a reminder :

**Upon stepping into my blog,u have already agreed that u are to read the following materials published here and not have an opposing view on it,basically because its my blog. If u can't accept it,go else where. These are my views,theres no need to get upset because ur view differ. I do however accept constructive discussion though. However if ur intentions are to get red and angry at me,I'm afraid to say that u shud take things lightly and view life in a different angle. Cuz these are my thoughts. Who are u to disagree on them? Freedom of speech FTW*

Well that concludes my discussion

As a former debate member,I just couldn't let this topic slip by my hands. :)

So....when a tree falls...does it make a sound? ;)





Till then.

거울아 거울아 이 세상에 누가 제일 예쁘니?

Soooo..right. I'm back. Anyways,anyone ever wonder whats the use of a mirror?

I hear some of u thinking "Duh? To look at myself when I get up!" Well,aside from that.?

Another person says out loud with his thinking cap on : "To do science experiments? How bout driving?" And the list goes on and on~

Well regardless of what ur answer is,the general purpose of the mirror never changes. Its original purpose is to reflect,hence why its created. What people do with it,determines its next course of action,but the mirror itself is unchanged. Forever reflecting.

There are a few concepts worth noticing regarding the mirror :

1) The most famous being Self-reflecting "Reflecting on oneself's actions and thinking."

I'm sure that pretty much explains itself. U do something,then at the end of the day think back whether its the right decision or not. If u made an important decision to do something,u reflect to see if anything has gone wrong. This was one of the most important lesson handed down to me by my Standard 6 teacher. One of our homework to do everyday,was self-reflection. And I have been doing it till now,consciously or subconsciously.


2) The mirror,regardless of anything stays neutral. It mainly reflects what u show to it. But never becomes part of it.

This is the more recent concept that I discovered while sitting down day dreaming. As mentioned above,the mirror merely reflects what is shown. I believe we should try to be like a mirror sometimes when the situation calls for it. Though I can imagine some of u are already scoffing at this idea,probably thinking along the lines like : "This is absurd. Its not that easy in real life etc etc".

As for me,I'm hoping to put this theory into use. But hopefully I won't have to in the future. If a person gets into an argument,and is feeling awful inside..try to reflect all those negative thoughts like a mirror. And look for the positive light. Like wise when facing a difficult task ahead (for eg. an exam) try to reflect back all that stress to ur surrounding and look for a peace of mind to settle down ur thoughts.

Though its only the theory stage now,perhaps with some practical application..this 2 theory might actually work well hand in hand.

Don't worry,if it actually works..I'll let u know k?

*Btw I will lengthen this post once I come up with more philosophical thoughts. So check back once in awhile. For now I got a Gundam to train :D Hehehe,WHAT?! I'm human too k? AND I PLAY GAMES..ESCPECIALLY GUNDAM GAMES*


Till then ;)

Weekends...

I had never longed for weekends as much as i have now-having oppa as my partner...

Weekends are times with my beloved oppa...

Weekends are times when we stand outside the cinema with me doing goofy stuff like crab walking...

Weekends are times when oppa peck me on the cheek and cuddle me...

Weekends are times where we eat and laugh at the silly things we did...

Weekends are times when we have fun... walking around the mall hand in hand...

I miss weekends with oppa so much...

I wanna be there with oppa...

I miss you sooooo much...

Crying~Alice