Saturday, January 30, 2010

shadow's report :D

She's doing alright :)
*YESSSS*


She looks awesome in that outfit :D
*uhmmm~ ^^ *

She's having a nice time back home xD
*nods nods nods*


And I juz called :O
*gg..*

Im glad to hear the 1st word :

"Hello?"


Have u ever felt so eager to hear a common word used whenever ppl greet each other?
Cuz I dun apparently..

BUT

her 'hello"s really light my ears up
drive my ear nuts
and make me feel at ease..

;)


Gomahwuh yobo,
Jal jal,sleep properly :)

And..I juz updated! YAY~
*crashes to bed*

(-_-)zzzzZZZzzz


Till then

Friday, January 29, 2010

A kitten miles away.. :(


I know...u might be sleeping already..

Or,maybe unable to reply my text on the road..

But....

Its driving me crazy

though u only left for 2 hrs on the road home...



Im thinking so so,much bout u..

my phone not ringing drives me nuts...


I really miss u..

Thats all u have to noe when u read this post..

saranghae..


.....


I'll keep this place updated,

Till then..

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Summer skies

"Once upon a time,
Tiger told kitten he wants to fly..
Kitten ask,How? :O
Tiger points to the stars saying,
I wanna be like them~"


:)



To : A certain kitten that didn't get my msg x)

Why keep dozing off laa~ ;P
See? Now have to repeat what I said.. =X

Hmm...I said....

*Bla bla bla bla*



What,did u EXPECT me to repeat whatever I said last night on the blog?
;)


I'll give u a rerun tonight la ^^


Till then,

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Love is fire.. :)


Eh...Im tired of hiding la

LOL. <= Damn random ^-^V

Well at least not in my blog,like..

This is my OWN blog
:O
hohoho

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So....here it goes....

I *Bleep* her..

As in... => <3
That kind of bleep,not the "BLEEP" ur thinking k? =P


I probably cant say it anywhere else,lmao

So yeah,whatever la..
My blog,so I can say all I want huh...


Dun leave me forever...
:)
I always need ur soft hand by my side..


Love like fire...
Stand by me always..


Till then,


Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Step by me~

Frankly I can't be bothered... Im not angry or like really pushed to one corner bcuz of that.

Life is bound to have challenges..

Even more so for the both of us.

But after reading those msges he sent,I find it rather pathetic and Im disgusted..
How can sumone not respect ur privacy..
Not respect ur choice..
Not respect ur rights..


Dun feel guilty...
Its not worth anything..
U cant look left and right at the same time..

Pretty much like,how u cant have 2 girls at once
That act,makes me regurgitate whenever I hear it..


Promises huh?
What use does a human have..
If he throws away self pride and honor
But gets the girl he wants
Despite it being 1 sided..?


Nothing at all,neither position nor pride as a Guy left...

A person who cant respect anyone else...
Cant respect anyone's privacy..
Cant understand and bother to think bout his words properly..
Who takes advantage of soft spots for personal gain..
Who can simply make "Love movie"-like promises..
Yet drop the ones who trusted him anytime like that...


I feel sick juz by observing him..
Its disgusting..


Put him in a cage if u must...and send him back to his girl..
It may seem selfish..but I wont stand down if ur hurt by this...

I ...wont allow it.

Besides..I know how u feel already
Whenever u say it,I think our love grows stronger..

Till then,

Monday, January 11, 2010

String of words

First and foremost,before I start off...I'd like to apologize to Nick.The word sorry may not be enough to neutralize all those anger in u,but its there for a reason. To express my regret...

Recently,I've been rather busy.It gets like this towards the end of each year.Starting with my duties at the temple,my performances and outings with IX and my personal life..

I am in no position to defend myself as I did promise a sleepover and outing with u and Hor.Yes,that was true.. But I was suddenly caught up with all those things happening around me,and only had the time now to settle down a little and catch up on blog hopping as well as studying and prepping myself for the medical year,starting 22nd of Feb.

I still see u as a friend,but I find it difficult from my side to make decisions sumtimes.I am latched onto IX and we did have a show to run last year,around december.Along with me juggling as many balls as possible,the result was me dosing off after a tiring day and sleeping soundly till the next day without enough energy left for a dream..

But,Nick...I blieve sumtimes,2 human beings still can be frens.Though the distance between them is as far as 7000km or more,across an ocean or even across a barren wasteland.Bcuz the thought inside is what it counts.. I still view u and Hor as frens.Though I dun meet up often with Hor anymore,but online we're still buddies and we occasionally check with each other on facebook status,etc..
I did the same for u too,checking ur side though not commenting on ur page.

Im juz too tied down before then and some things juz slipped away.Fang Kai's coming farewell before he leaves for US,Kai Xi's farewell to London,its all lingering around and I really juz feel attached sumtimes..

Im sure u find me disgusting or horrible for breaking a promise like that twice already..
But I still view u as a fren,regardless of whether we meet or not.Bcuz my memories of highschool,2 Angerrik and 3 Siantan is still with me.The days u,me,Michelle Lee and Mun mun used to be 1 gang.

Frens,to me are people whom u'd hold dear to.Regardless of distance of race.I've been out of contact with u for quite some time.Im aware of that.But I do occasionally think back of our highschool days while walking past BU4.The situation Im in normally dictates for me to be held down by sumthing,a performance,an outing or simply juz a meal with IX.Im not saying others arent important,but it gets tiring and hard to manage sumtimes..
Im sure though I've not been talking to u for quite sometime,we are still frens and will always be frens.The memories of how I'd go to ur hse and play Gundam games.The memories of u introducing Z Gundam : AEUG vs Titans to me and how I used to fight ur Gelgoog with the RX-78.Good days,I rmb all of those..
Whenever we bump on the streets,it'll still be the same.Whenever we talk on msn,it'll still be the same.I still rmb how ur hse looks like,the days we draw in class and laugh at some teachers,and the days where we'd sneak to Ikano to play Gundam.

The day ur mum and bro came to the game store,u hid beneath the game counter behind the cashier while we boys hide from ur mum by avoiding eye contact.I rmb that,I took of my glasses to avoid being suspected of playing truant for extra class.I thought I was dead when ur mum caught me outside school during study time.Those too I rmb..


Im sorry..
I wish u all the best,regardless of whether u walk out on me,I view u as a fren still and my treatment to u is mutual and the same as others,with no offence and a voice of concern.

Friday, January 8, 2010

:)

Have u ever melt down and felt all wobbly inside..?

Then,kinda solidify and become all normal again?

Cuz thats what ur good at doing...

Softening the inside



Its soothing

Thank you..


Tuesday, January 5, 2010

永遠の



I wish...

For once..everyone would juz dissapear
And that,time will stop..
even for juz 1 minute

Juz leave us alone...
Juz be sumwhere else
Juz let us stay in each other's company
Juz let us be that way

..for awhile.


But,looks like my wish already came thru
U being next to me..
I can't be that greedy with another wish,right..?


Whatever the problem or obstacle..
Regardless of how high those walls are..

We'll scale them.

And..at its peak

We'll fine back ur warm self,together...

Juz enjoy the process and company..
This journey has already started


I'll be ur lamp come dark days
Ur umbrella when things get wet
Ur sunglasses when u wanna look at the sun
Ur blanket when things start to snow..

Ur pillow when ur tired..

Always..

If only u knew how I really felt inside...

:)



Till then,

Monday, January 4, 2010

Illusions in this tainted world..




The sharingan :D

幻術

*********
Recently I've been unusually more chirpy

Haha..

Yeah,being chirpy is good.


:)

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What do I see with my eyes?
Life,an illusion
Myself an illusion
Everyone an illusion


But...u,are never an illusion
U matter a lot to me..
Ur real.
Ur everything,u cant be an illusion..


Understand..?
No matter what..
Whatever that happened,it was and will be an illusion
In my eyes,they are illusions..

I...cant be bothered with those
They waste my time..
So dun repeat another Sorry to me..

It's alright..really.

I felt a pinch before then,but I already overlooked those illusions
Thinking bout our journey till now,I felt happy and glad


There's no way for u to understand my words,
but this blog probably said it best..right?
Dummy...
Silly...
Rockhead...
Intelligence of an ice cream stick...
Fool....


:)




What do ur eyes see..?
The illusions of this world,or the inner being that glows..?

My eyes....see a warm and comfortable red glow from ur inside....

Till then,