Bam.

Someone actually said I lost weight :O

Ehehehe, my plan is working *evil laughter*

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Now hiring :

Must be :

Female 
(No thai transgender pls)

Age between 20- 22

Asian with a mildly fair complex
(^i don't even know what that means)

BMI within Normal range 

(google it if you don't know whats the range)

If you are all of the above^
Then send your resume to me at blablabla@hotmail.com

:D
 

Extra points for girls with a bob cut hairstyle,

'cuz they are cute

To top it off, YOU get instantly hired IF :

 you wear a hairband 

or 

a ginormous ribbon on your head

because then you'd be too damn cute to resist.

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I kid lawl,

no seriously.. I'm kidding.

Ughhh fell sick..

Who knew 6 lobaks can give me sore throat -___-
6 sticks, not 6 pieces :D


I realize my schedule is more free and relaxed once I remove the compulsive urge of gaming every night.

Wayyyy more freedom to do what I like.

My body and joints actually ache like mad.

Time for some rest ><

I know I shouldn't have done it..

But I did it anyways,

I opened your 1st Valentine's day letter to me..


And subsequently allowed the memories in.


Out of curiosity I googled When she stops caring, she stops loving..
The 1st article that came out blew my mind into pieces.



And then I realize I was a fool for not listening.
I was the one that let her go..

I'm sorry..
I really wish I could say this,
but I couldn't.
Because I know in your eyes, I'm a different guy from the one you loved back then.

And though I tell you I can and will change,
those words mean nothing in your heart.
Because you left that spot, a long time ago.

I want to hope that you will open your heart once more,
but I have no rights to do so..
because my wants, will hurt you more.

And then I become the same insensitive jerk again..

I see you everytime I close my eyes,
those memories, like a movie album..
constantly on loop,
and then I fall asleep once the torture is enough.

Looks like I too, got lost in the middle of my journey,

It pains me that the most ignorant person on this planet,
despite bragging about wisdom..

turns out to be me..




I shouldn't have ignored the signs..
coming from me, and you..


..what good is a lover,
that can't love anything properly.

떠나가지 못하는 남자

"Why do we fall Bruce?"
"So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.."


I'm not afraid anymore,
..not in doubt anymore,
..not questioning anymore,
nor am I hoping anymore.

I'm back to where I was,
when I just came back from Australia.

Though I can stand up now,
there are bound to be sad days once in awhile.


Once I leave this house,
my recovery will be complete.
And I won't need to think of you anymore
every night I close my eyes in bed.


..or  when I take a shower
..even when I sit in my room
..or do my work
..or play my games

and the list goes on and on..

Your smile, your laughter,
your giggles and whispers..
the secrets we share..
they are safe with me..


I can still be a very good friend,

I won't run anywhere,
if you need me to listen, just press the green button..

after all, I used to be the guy that understands you the most..


I wish you all the best in life,
and be happy always.

So many things to say..

It wasn't because my courage was lacking..


Just because I can say it,

doesn't mean other people are ready to listen to it..

그대 때문에 사랑을 알았는대...

"사랑하는 사람 앞에선,
사랑한다는 말을 하지않는다..
아니...안하는것이 아니라,
못하는것이 사랑에 진실이다.."

I should probably stop hoping..
because that's a greedy act.
It's selfish..

You seem to be really honest,
that you want to erase memories of me..

..I, shouldn't stop you from leaving then.
The pain to bear,
is much lesser than seeing you suffer..


..tear drops flow as I hold your whistle.