No love is forever,
if you believe in that then you are a fool.


Now that we are all above the age of immaturity,
perhaps it is time to act our age and look for love,
not infatuation and sparks at first sight.


I can't even fathom how it is like,
to be a person who loves without seeing a future.
I feel sorry seeing how stupid people can be.

 
People like this,
should grow out of immaturity,
and stop looking at flowers.

Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Though separated and different, they share the same love for one another.


Improving myself is 1 thing..

But I will never change my ideals,
and change myself just because of you.
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Time doesn't heal scars,
it plasters the wound with scar tissues,
shielding the mind from hurting itself.
Opening my eyes, and forgiving myself,
suddenly makes the wound painless.


The deeper I fall,
the harder it is to wake up,
is it the dreamer that refuses to see the blue skies,
or the skies that refuse to acknowledge the dreamer?


In a desert searching for an oasis,
I was on my way to find my soulmate,
I merely stopped by and had a seat with you,
thinking perhaps you might be the one.


I get stronger day by day,
not hesitating as I used to, erasing you,
that surge of courage,
is it anger and hatred, or my awareness
that it's not you, destined to be in my arms,
I wonder..


I'll be on my way now.

Hmm.. maybe instead of throwing mandarin orange into the ocean,

perhaps I should take one and throw it at your face :D


Naww, I'm just kidding


No really.. I'm kidding :/

I can't be consumed by hate.

I can't let anger get to me.

I won't hate, I won't dislike.
I empty my feelings into a flask and lock them.
Not taking them out is a problem now,
but with time..perhaps..

Time may change me, but not my ideals.

I won't throw my vows and dreams away,
because I fell down and hurt myself.



Be strong,
Be tough,

Be me.
Only I can do that.

I'm sure there will be a time,
when I am lost again..
or my map flew away..
or I lost my bearings..

but, my heart will guide me.


I have to trust myself, and aim high.

I got this, right?

farewell

Today I learn,
that emotions such as love,
come across similar to flame.


Once I tasted the flames,
I wanted more.

And struggled till I got it.
I made it as big as possible..

But one can't seem to fan on forever,
there are days where you learn to live,
with a dim and smaller light,
enough to illuminate 2 people.

It's not extinguished,
just small and weak,
but more than enough for 2 souls..


I thought we shared the same thought,


turns out only I held on,
and continue to learn how to love you past those fiery days..
and then you blame me for everything..

I didn't comeback to hear why I was left behind,
I came back to know if you really meant it..
and I believed in our promises,
so I came back again. and again..

People's heart are so difficult to read.

Normally I'd ignore facebook articles,
but this one, really caught my mind..
shame, I didn't read it earlier.
shame, I didn't know about it earlier.

I would have asked,
if you'd stand by me if the fire went dim.

Love is an illusion,
until you learn to love.

Otherwise, I guess it doesn't matter who's next to you,
once the fire dims..it will always end the same way.

Today, I learn to love.
I guess if finding the right person is like writing the prologue of a paperback novel,
then learning to love that person day by day,
is like writing the entire novel itself.

Shame, not every movie portrays the slower part of love..
I'm not gonna lie, I've always thought the flame would fan on bright and hot forever.

I can't doubt myself.

If I can be easily swayed by a facebook post,
I obviously haven't cleared my head enough.

She left, rather than try to understand the situation..
She turned her back on me 1st,
not wanting to work anything out.


We are 2 boats than can't sail in the same direction.



So why do I keep doubting myself..

Started watching Nae Yeojachinguneun Gumiho 
Out of boredom :/

I swear I was just googling Shin Min Ah's name after watching an episode of Running Man
Next thing you know, I spend and entire afternoon watching 4 episodes @_@

I even missed my jogging routine argh
Tomorrow must do double TT__TT


Why does the brain dream of things 
the heart wants to let go..?

I woke up when you asked me for my shirt,
telling me you missed my scent..

I wonder who will be my Gumiho.. 
I thought you were the one.

Sorry, I'm just passing by,
leave me alone.