A field of hope...

White Lilies

Lily of the Valley

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A field of hope

Walking on soiled ground
Dandelions whisper,a sound
Among flying petals,thy found
Thou,sitting among the beauties around..

Heartbeats,thy trot through anxiously
Blinded,thy wonder curiously
Amazed,thy want to touch lovingly
Warm,thy felt intensely

Through the greens,thy walk
For the only wish was to talk
A beauty among beauties
A face purer than white lilies..

And at that moment,heaven's gaze
Sending beams of light in place
Falling onto thou,thy in daze
Heart skipped its pace

Why would thou be among flowers
Beneath the clouds that hovers
Overlooking the towering blue sky
Watching the birds soar high..

And at that moment,thy...
Stroke softly,though thou shy
Emotions spoke freely
Thou,my Lily of the Valley

Blossoming through lovely May
Brightening my day
What hast thou..?
Thou art,thy Lily of May...

Referring to Fang Kai's post on his future Gf *Sorry ya Fang Kai,ambil idea dari blog awak.LOL*,I'll like to give him due credit 1st for me taking ideas from that post. =p

Well..Im glad dreams did came true.Wishes did.And I,will continue to walk on the path of comfort along side that person together..till we reach the last sunrise and sunset that will ever cross the lands.

White Lilies,as described in the poem represent purity or a heavenly feeling being with someone u love.White Lilies too are linked to Juno,while nursing Hercules some of her milk fell from the skies creating the stars we know as the Milky way.While some dropped onto Earth,creating pure white lilies.

Lily of the Valley meanwhile,represent the return of happiness, purity of heart, sweetness, tears of the Virgin Mary, you've made my life complete, humility, happiness and love's good fortune. The legend of the lily of the valley is that it sprang from Eve's tears when she was kicked out of the Garden of Eden. It is also believed that this flower protects gardens from evil spirits and is also known as the flower of May.

Bright as a sunflower,lovely like the Lilies in May and pure in ways like the white lilies of Juno..


Till then,

....

I feel uneasy
cuz I was late..

I feel tight inside..
Choking
Heart all twisted into a small ball

And that I had things 2 say but had to be cut off
I juz had to be cut off
No...dun start with it being ok

Its not to me..
No its not ok...

I didnt want u to walk off that way
but I feel guilty for not doing more

Cuz u went to bed feeling sore

What the hell was I doing...


I...wanna....
talk 2 u,now...

Pls pick..up.

I have so much to say now
I dun care bout things already,I juz wanna talk 2 u..

Pls pick up...
Pls pick up.....
Pls...pick up......
Pls.


I..Im sorry.

Road after road...

He...was working hard to make ends meet

I was with him for 2 hours

And I felt that deeply

How he had to listen to his superior

and had to rush around whenever they lifted their hands

Making things seem so easy..

He was talking to me bout cars,that he wanna buy me one

And bout IMU and how he noe I'll do my best

Then at times he'd sound like an ass

I...dunno,whats best now..

I run on hatred sumtimes,not feeling my daily cup of it feels weird

Why must he be such a bastard sumtimes..cuz I was holding it in since the car ride..

I wont say those words out,but u know how it feels in me..

My utmost respect for u,at the end of the day..it'll never be drained completely..

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Sumtimes I wonder...

Are words the only way for 2 humans to connect..

Maybe not,judging by how some are gifted with judging based on emotional responses.. A frown,a wink,a smile,a twitch.. It seems that speaking is my strong point.Power point presentations,public speaking,debating,scolding people and cursing *Whoops* ~ =P But talking with ppl that matter the most.. D.I.F.F.I.C.U.L.T.

Not as in difficult to accomplish..but rather,difficult to think bout things to say. Its like,u stare and juz gawk at them.Not like their some super star that appeared right infront of u.. Thats the "Obsessed fanboy/fangirl" stare.Haha..

Its more like the,"Im relaxed feeling grateful and happy then turn blank" stare.U juz feel powerless and all weak,cuz its the time to relax and be urself.Showing things u never do.. and juz having fun.Sumtimes u juz run out of things to say..I guess it happens a lot for me.And Im dissapointed in myself for that.Cuz its like,I must always come in with a script for talking..or else I'd be lost.

So..its dissapointing that way....


I juz..feel weird.And awkward sumtimes,maybe Im still a boy inside. Not much of a change from before. I dunno..

Gahhh...its frustrating la.
And its juz plain weird....
I noe theres ntg much to it,but I wanna do my best..
Its not a competition or anything la,I know
Wait...wth am I saying,I lost myself la
Lol,kla,time to end this post...


Till then,

:)

A chocolate cake called Reality

My bro got 6As for PMR.
lol,talk about the both of us having the same score.

Im proud of him...really.
But I juz dun show it like : WHOOAAAAAAA,CONGRATSSSSS YOOO! and stuff..
I juz said,congrats.The End.

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Hmm...time spent on things really matter u know?

Like...time spent with the ppl u want most

Time spent with frens whom are like blood brothers

Time spent with family?
Non existent

I dunno why its that way,but I really can't be bothered.


Nun : U really shudnt be at the temple so often.Go back and spend time with ur kids..
Mum : Its ok.Im busy here now.
Nun : No,u shud be at home with the kids.
*Then proceeds to continue stitching the decoration for the temple*

Uncle : Next time,spend more time with the boys.
Mum : I know whats right for them la..
*Then proceeds to wind up the car window*

Both situations were heard by my bro,I wasnt actually there
But frankly,I could feel the pinch too

Which brings me to the topic,is my bro really happy?
He was absent for lunch when our dad wanted to "celebrate"

Mum on the other hand wudnt stop banging on other's phone number reporting her son's feat..

So....how is this situation fairing from the point of ur view?
Im juz too lazy to bother.


Im more anxious waiting for Santa to drop me a gift~
Oh wait...I already have a gift ;)
Im such a greedy bastard :P

Till then,

Anything and Everything

Been busy lately

Temple stuff,that was Thursday till Sunday

And It's You

Hehe..

But it was fun
No no,I didnt mean those ABOVE were fun

I meant...that~

Till then,
Squish Squish Squish~ <3 x)

Motion

Eh eh...

Er..I'm kinda

worried

o_o



Like...I dunno -_-

What if Im doing a bunch of things that make me look stupid
=/

Or or...if Im doing too much that makes it go overboard

Or or or...if Im doing too little that makes it look like Im not bothered.


Seriously la,sumone shud like draw a map for me

And program my steps

Cuz Im kinda having all these marshmallows stuck in my head

Jamming my thoughts ._.


Am I walking too fast?
=/

Gee~

Till then,

:D

The previous post on Moans and Complaints was removed

;)

From pink cakes to bladders..



hahaha

Till then,
:)

Today 2day Yesterday And the Future Days

Come future
Come past
Come present
Come dreams
Come failures
Come today,tomorrow,yesterday,the future and the likes..

I'll be ready...
No more excuses,Im taking the future with my own hands..

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2day was...Ok.Haha...wait,Im not speaking as of Today.
I meant yesterday. :D

I kinda didnt receive gifts.But hey,who needs em.I got sumthing more precious...

Sumthing that I can proudly look at..
Sumthing that I can smile sincerely to and yet giggle when things are awkward..
Sumthing that I can hold tightly in embrace when Im happy..
Sumthing that I can juz stare blankly into space at,yet feel amused and happy..
Sumthing that I can smile to God and be grateful for..
Sure,the journey didnt started out as planned..but Im no longer bothered by that..
Bcuz I promise..and I do..


And bcuz of that...Im willing to wear my heart outside and not hide them

Though Im a bit shy and maybe speechless sumtimes
but..

Thats the best gift ever..

Human life itself..
To see another soul stand next to u come day,rain,shine or storm..
That itself is the greatest gift I've ever received..ur existence being part of me and my life..


Till then,

Freedom's Blade

Ep.39 of Gundam SEED Destiny

On a side note,Strike Freedom is one of my favourite Gundams :D


Minus the fighting and killing -_- ,this video does carry a certain meaning to sum things up...

Some things juz can't be expressed using block letters or alphabets..

"I should be the one to apologize.."

As said by Athrun Zala,when prompted for forgiveness

Together,we'll go back to where everyone are..filled with joy and comfort in each other's company..

Kira found Lacus...finally..

Till then,

Highlight of the week *And probably following weeks*

1st Look at
Mobile Suit Gundam : Gundam vs Gundam NEXT Plus

Console : PSP
Currently running on : PSP Ver. >6.00 (U must have Ori Software to play this)
Size : 1.63GB (Approximately 1.7GB)

Mechas usable : Approximately 70 playable units in total

PSP Special units :
Reborns Gundam
00 Raiser
The-O
Providence Gundam
Kshytria
Unicorn Gundam
Wing 0 Custom
Gundam Nataku

On to the review
*Note,I havent played the game as I dun own an Ori copy and my PSP recently got bricked,aka I have to downgrade it to Custom Firmware to play fake games*

(We at the forums are currently working hard and keeping up to crack the game for u guys out there)

The playable units selection line up certainly grew big this time.Its nearly 2.5 times that of the original Gundam vs Gundam,its prequel.Many playable units each with distinctive gameplay and "unique to self" skills.The new PSP units are certainly a welcomed addition to the band of Gundams already playable.

Maps too have grown,original GvG maps are included and they certainly expanded the playable Courses from 8 to 11 now. *Course/Routes A-K are playable in arcade mode*

I can't say much bout the campaign mode aka PLUS mode.It certainly is nice but I'll blog bout this once the Custom ver. of the game comes out.

Units
Reborns Gundam certainly plays out well being the lead villain in the Gundam 00 series.Yes,it does have the "Im bad ass" aura and it certainly does have the unique Fang/Funnel attack.While the targeting of the Fangs are relatively dissapointing for balance purposes,the melee and swinging of its big beam saber is extremely lethal and damaging.Reborns Cannon can be used by pressing the (X and Square button) at the same time to quickly hover and fire a barrage of beams for cover.

Trans-Am mode allows R.G's beam rifle to change to some sort of big grinding laser.Good for downing enemies while u finish off the other with ur sword un-interrputed.Sadly its Trans-Am fails to provide much cover unlike the after images from Exia/00 Raiser or F-91.U can still EASILY get shot and someone can drive a sword right thru u while ur in Trans-Am with much ease.Be careful bout abusing that.This ain't the Exia or 00 Raise ;)

Assist is the Gadessa using a grinding shot.Pretty good for a distraction.Decent rifle,good melee combos but sadly the Fangs/Funnels juz cant hit the enemy properly.They shoot EVERYWHERE except the enemy. -_- Certainly Class A Gundam if u ask me and will give players trouble on LAN Vs mode.

00 Raiser is way overpowered.Assist is the Seravee shooting a Slow Big Ball of Death that mows anything down along its path.Good to use it after u've downed and enemy and they are attempting to get up.Otherwise,the ball is pretty much DODGEABLE.Trans-Am gives new melee sets and after images which screw up ur aiming.And for those who manage to end the battle with Trans-Am,u'll be rewarded with a nice pose of 00 Raiser releasing massive amounts of GN particle.

The-O returns to become an unlockable this time.Its sub skill allows it to use the Awakening system *From ZGundam vs Gundam* where u can utilize Speed,Assault or Recovery to ur benefit.Assault will doube ur attack damage,Speed gives near unlimited boost while recovery gives u extra 100 hp after 'death'.The-O's assist is the Bolindak Samahn which allows the player to see it's opponents boost gauge.

Providence gained new charge attacks and melee combos.Its assist is the green GuAIZ.It now can unleash a devasating undodgeable Dragoon combo which leech off all its ammo to deal big amount of damage.

Wing 0 Custom can't block physically as it got no shield,but pressing X and Square while its flying allows it to cover itself with the pair of wings temporarily decreasing damage received and blocking certain projectiles.The twin beam rifle can be fired continuos twice and the charge shot can now be upgraded to level 3.Melee orientated and it does have a few nice thrust and multi-slash combos.Deadly ;)

Nataku certainly is deadly close and far.It can toss its trident making a 360 deg. turn and can unleash the twin dragon arms at u.

Due to the Custom firmware coming out on 15th Dec,guess I'll have to wait till then to play the game.
But if I can't hold it,maybe Ori ftw eh?


Till then,
Will give a 2nd review once I got the game.