Saturday, October 31, 2009

Juliette


Screw u all..

lol

Im learning Juliette since the progress from the "dance loader" have stopped

lmao..Joker,From 0.00 till end of chorus 1 took me 1 hr,but im not that perfect yet

Still screw up timing =_=

BUT...Im gonna keep practicing..

At least till my hair becomes long like Taemin's and my body becomes slim like Jung hyun's..

:)

Of seraphs and angels..


*Of seraphs and angels..*

If I had wings..
I want no other things..
Is joy what it brings..?
For freedom now rings..

If I had wings..
I want not petty flings
But a taste that clings
The sky now rings..

If I had wings..
I'll take to the skies,flying
And ride on the clouds,drifting
Painless and no screaming

If I had wings..
I wouldn't stay on land walking
Nor be friendly with those running
Neither will I stay on ground living..

If I had wings..
I'd fly to the ends of these hurtings
And forget those who were causing
I'd start anew,dreaming

If I had wings..
Feathers white and gleaming
Joy and hopes beaming
Happiness and freedom singing..

If I had wings..
I'd smite those I'm hating..
And forget those who were lying..
Forgetting the past,I'm leaving..
Rub out the hopes I'm dreaming..
Erasing the present,I'm clearing..
Return to the heavens,singing
Gates open,welcoming
And be there till I find joy gleaming..

If only I had wings....white ones...
I'd fly and leave all of you here..
I can't wait to go back to my own utopia..my own heaven.
I can't wait to see my own wings..
And when I finally do,I will smile when I finally reach up there..

A place where the 7 sins no longer exist..

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Gravity

소년, 소녀를 만나다

[Minho] This painful love story has frozen my heart
I give another short sigh at this love I’ve come to hate
The rest of my breath becomes distant, becomes faint

[Taemin] Girl meets boy and a painful love starts now
An unspeakable love becomes an echo and love starts again

[Onew] I loved you, I wanted you
I went to you, so even if you hate me
[Jongyhun] My heart cries because it yearns to say more
Sadness makes another day pass by

[Key] With only the memories of loving you
I’m stupid for being selfish with you
[Jonghyun] Now I feel a little confused
You don’t know that you’re my only boo
I only look at you

That love starts again
[Onew] You don’t know me nor the love I feel for you

A painful love starts again
[Key] Before I meet with you
I try not to let my feelings control me

I hate goodbyes
[Jonghyun] I can’t say that I love you
And like a fool again, I couldn’t hold onto you

I love you, I want to see you

[Minho] (I still don’t know)
I don’t know love
I don’t know goodbyes
I still don’t know
I know that my heart wants you
Oh, my girl! Oh, my love!

[Key] There’s a cloud as clear as her gaze
Just knowing that we can see it together makes it beautiful
[Minho] The day the cloud turns into rain, we can no longer see it
Knowing that we can’t escape, my heart sinks.

[Taemin] From thoughts of you, I yell inside myself, “I like you”
[Key] The echoes answer back “No way”
[Onew] Without you, my feelings are down
[Key] I still believe that you’ll come back
[Jonghyun] I fell so deep in love with such a girl like you
Don’t think of me as just a boy
[Onew] Like a man, I want to be your lover, your love

That love starts again
[Taemin] You don’t know me nor the love I feel for you

A painful love starts again
[Onew] Before I meet with you
I try not to let my feelings control me

I hate goodbyes
[Key] I can’t say that I love you
And like a fool again, I couldn’t hold onto you

I love you, I want to see you

[Jonghyun] Now I’ll say that I love you
I’ll make myself love you
[Onew] We met through much difficulty
[Key] Even when you waited for me, I couldn’t hold on to you
[Taemin] My image now vanishes

That love starts again
[Key] You don’t know me nor the love I feel for you

A painful love starts again
[Onew] Before I meet with you
I try not to let my feelings control me

I hate goodbyes
[Jonghyun] I can’t say that I love you
And like a fool again, I couldn’t hold onto you

I love you, I want to see you

(Love starts again x2)
[Minho] This painful love story has frozen my heart
I give another short sigh at this love I’ve come to hate
The rest of my breath grows faint, dies away

(Love starts again x2)
[Taemin] Girl meets boy and a painful love starts now
An unspeakable love becomes an echo and love starts again

(I hate goodbyes x4)
[Minho] She has a lot of things she wants to say
But it doesn’t look like they’ll get through
Heartache, heartache, heartache
“Will you come to me? Lean on me?”
I lay those sorts of worries aside
Get rid of all those lingering affections, erase them
P.S. I want to hear her voice one last time

[Onew] I love y-you

Wonderful song.. ^^ Can freestyle to this hehe...


Learned a lesson from this...

Yes,its my fault for doing that..but there wont be a 2nd time anymore..

I dun like poking..especially those who poke into my life

Im not especially amused when I hear flashbacks of what I did thru another lip

Respect..

Privacy...

Can I have 1 cup of each pls..?

Even the dumbest looking platypus will bear venomous claws when pushed..


Dun push me,Im not amused..

Im out.




Saturday, October 24, 2009

Now now ladies~

Today is 24th of Oct..hehe.Thats right,roughly 2 more weeks to the release of Left for Dead 2 (L4D 2).After months of *stalking*/observing the L4D 2 Steam forums board since the announcement was made at E3 convention,the final most anticipated moment is finally here :D

More melee weapons,amazing weapons and nice equipments become available,including axes,chainsaws and the Ak47.Can't wait la for this zombie shitfest :X

Check out how to survive a zombie apocalypse here

Anyway it'd probably be sumtime before the local pirate gung ho release the cetak rompak ver. of this game.Lmao being a Msian,I aint gonna buy the game for my Xbox 360..no way man.Buy it original for com...? Yeah I'll do that. Xbox? Nah.... ;)

Dad recently came back jumping about a cruise tour during nov,shud be around 20th.. =/
Cant say Im excited,juz hope I got L4D2 with me then :D
And maybe my laptop...hp...testpad...and a pen...yeah,a pen.So that I can look out to the sea and write more poetic babbles :D

Im not really excited bout sea rides though...further more not excited that theres an indoor casino!? F***ing hell burn that Satan damned place down pls...? =X
I hope he doesnt come back with his underpants left -____-

Here's to Left 4 Dead striking shores as soon as possible..

Till then,
Quotes Ellis from Left 4 Dead 2 survival guide : "Kill of sons'uv bitches"

Oh btw...u cant burn down the casino,or else the ship might go down... lol

Silence


*Silence*

Silence kills
Blood spills
Skin peels
And heart feels..

Eyes whispering the truth
For they are treated by the hoof
Trampled by other
For they didnt bother

Friend or foe?
Eyes like a doe
Yet u hid behind a mirror
Waiting for thou moment,a glimmer

Only to spew lightning
Upon a conflict spiralling..
For thy mention,truth
Trampled again,by thou hoof..

Where art thou?
Honesty,gone
What thou done
I will return to none
again..silence

So ..is it truth?
No need of proof..
All work is done aloof...
Wasted thy truth..



Another bday,another Rm10 note gone.. lol ;)

Recently I've been spending wayyyyy over the limit :P
lol but anyway here's the summary to the 2 bday boy's outing.
*Note : Celebrated separately*




Pang Yean's brain caught falling out during Wei Jian's bday
Lol,pls keep ur brain and fingers where they belong x)



Singing Super Girl bu Suju-M during K
Note the background on the screen,any pro Suju fan can recognise what MV it is..
:)



Karaoke boys
Ian open ur eyes :D



Eugene Goh and the bday boy,Wei Jian
Everyone was doing the "gay" ver. of Boom Boom Pow.
lol



Awesome night ^^



Title : Sexy
Spotted? :Outside 1U
Relationship status : Engaged to driver
Nickname : Hot car
Spotted this outside 1U during Fang Kai's bday and instantly taught of Kai Xi T_T



Fang Kai's store had the roof come down on its loyal customers during his bday..
Pls upkeep and take care of ur store workers too Fang Kai =P



The commotion right after the ceiling came down.
Fortunately no one got injured.
Spot the 2 bday boys in the pic.. ^^



Busybody ppl..lol
And of course,I took a picture..
Wait,correction...I took MANY pictures. =P



Have u realised how much an energy booster cost?
1000 bucks...yeah
Here u can get it for RM 5.20 instead of ingame x)

Notes :
1)Never race Daytona with Brian.He never plays fair

2)Never knock ur car to Brian's car,lol cuz ur car will end up flying.
My car flew a total of 2 times during the start BCUZ of him =_=

3)Always look out for pit stops,there are no shortcuts in Daytona.lol
I lost 1st place because of this.. x)

4)Refer to notes 1,2,3 and repeat them again.
:D

Till then,
Hope u guys had a great bday with IX,we'll always be there for u.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

바보



Noted at 3.07am
난 바보에요

I'm sorry for doing that.Signing out...yeah.

I didnt mean to be moody,sorry bout that too..

What am I doing..zzZ

I feel really bad cuz u were typing and I hit the sign out button

Really really sorry..I feel bad now

"죄송합니다

죄송합니다

죄송합니다

죄송합니다

죄송합니다"




Noted,stop thinking about things that didnt exist

There's no such thing as the boogey man...right?

Oh wait..내 머리가 나빠서... right..

Im out..
Im sorry,죄송합니다...k?

Saturday, October 17, 2009

My bell went Ring Ding Dong..




Hell yeah,my bells went ring ding dong inside me.. Those bright eyes burning,the bell went Ring Ding Dong~

ENG TRANSLATION


[Jonghyun] Baby
Why are you doing this to me
Who’s fallen in love with you?
Don’t step back, saying you’re afraid
Just leave it up to me
How’s that, my lady?

[Onew] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding (x2)
[Taemin] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding (x2)

[Key] Butterfly
The first moment I saw you
Eyes flashing, hair swishing
The bell rang ding dong

[Onew] I mean, I’m not
A cool guy or a nice guy
I’m a decent bad boy
In my own way

[Taemin] You’re also like a butterfly
You fell because you were too weak
You fell because you were too gentle
I’ll have to put you to the side
[Jonghyun] Don’t worry, don’t worry anymore
All you have to do is only believe in me
I like you a lot, I can’t let you slip

*[All] Baby
I can’t breathe, oh crazy
You’re too pretty, I can’t take it, oh crazy
If it’s not you, I don’t need it, crazy
Why am I like this?

So fantastic
So elastic

Fantastic (x4)
Elastic (x4)

[Onew] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding
([Taemin] _____ 들린다)

[Onew] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding
([Onew] It rings in my head)

[Taemin] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding
([Key] It rings in my heart)

[Taemin] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding

[Jonghyun] I call you butterfly
As days pass, nails keep driving in
I can’t free myself from you

[Key] Choose me (Don’t turn around)
Choose (Don’t run away)
[Taemin] Me, a fool, who has fallen for you
[Jonghyun] You have to take
Responsibility of me

*(Repeat)

[Minho] I can’t understand you
Who has caught the nice syndrome
[Key] Try to shed and break away sometimes
From those fixed images, it’s okay

[Onew] Break out ([Key] Hey!) (x4)
Ring ding ding ding ding
Dong dong dong dong

[Jonghyun] Honestly, I’m nervous
About how you see me
[Taemin] How, how
I don’t know if you have a good impression of me

[Onew] If it’s like this, I can only be restless
[Jonghyun] I can’t turn back

[Onew] Complicated girl
[Taemin] Never answer with a no
[Jonghyun] I’m a decent guy
[Taemin] I don’t know if I’ll go crazy

[Key] Silly girl (Silly girl)
[Onew] You’re my miracle (My miracle)
[Jonghyun] If I can just have you
I don’t need anything else

*(Repeat)

So fantastic
So elastic

Fantastic (x4)
Elastic (x4)

[Onew] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding
([Taemin] _____ 들린다)

[Onew] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding
([Onew] It rings in my head)

[Taemin] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding
([Key] It rings in my heart)

[Taemin] Ring ding dong
Ring ding dong
Ring diggi dingdiggi
Ding ding ding



Thursday, October 15, 2009

Swans


*Swans*

Gliding through water
Never at once falter
Neither stop to ponder
Have they ever wonder..?

Glittering sunlight
Casted of water,bright
Does truth always glide
Do thoughts always slide?

Pearl black eyes
As clear as the skies
Do they know cries
Or lay deaf,non wise~

Snow white feathers
Know no harsh weathers
Though harsh rain,splatter
They shine with glitter..

Does one know the pain?
For they waddle in vain
Beauty subjective
Words considered futile..

Elegance in mind
For we are blind
Truth is far fine
Sealed deep,try to find..

And those who lay eye
May be blind to thy
But thou soul,a cloud
Trying to shine past,proud

Words are a beauty
But meanings,not fully
Soul deep,its trully..
A hidden letter to thee..

For they remain at heart
So does this part
Endless gliding,on thou cart
A fool's journey,called art..



"I've always wondered about swans.I remember watching a show in which a girl was asked what animal she would wanna be.And it appears the answer was Swan.Bcuz of all the animals that worked hard to survive,the Swan is seen as a beauty gliding through water.But in fact,it paddles hard and strokes itself to stir around.She did not want her hardship to be felt by others,so that she wouldn't be aided all the time such as to rely too much on other ppl.. And she wanted to keep a still face displaying elegance in overcoming hardship..

Thus I used the swan as a model for this poem.Basically the swan's characteristics were used to rhyme with the words.And I created sumthing with a small taste of "Emo-ness" and yet might be inspiring to those who bother to observe it artistically.

In the process I did slide in some personal thoughts that I have.Not that Im having an issue.But I do wanna express the theme together with the rhyme that goes along.Whatever that happened this year came with a lesson and I proudly believe we juz have to cut a way across..so hence I left them squished into the poem..

Of them all,I do wish to highlight the beauty of words laid motionless in the heart.Whatever that means,its up 2 u to interpret.But I do find them more comforting and a soft zone to turn to instead of spewing things out all the time.Sumtimes the best way to show or tell is to leak them through the heart,and not the mouth.Perhaps the mouth is far too rough from the words we use to handle a delicate matter.. And the heart is best used to leak them out through feelings..
Much like how the swan only appears elegant through top,it's own inner feelings of hardship are hidden beneath the depths of water..

And yet after years of drifting,we lost our aim and need to re-adjust ourselves again.The words in the heart have wilted and changed in terms of meaning.Wilting doesnt mean sumthing bad,for those seeds juz have to be planted again.But this aim falters from time to time and we might loose ourselves.Its important not to forget this aim..but I feel that incase if we did choose to continue down said path of wilting,then it is none other than a lost art.Taken only objectively,and not appreciated subjectively..

I certainly became a lost picture not long ago,and Im still planting these seeds again...finding my own inner values in the process..
"

Freedom

Juz had a "wonderful" game with my cousin,bro and fellow IX member *Wei Jian aka Gozuri aka Gozugood,lol*

Er...wasnt the best I've played. >_<

Lol,I didnt know my cousin can lose his temper that easily.Then again he is human.Lmao,funny to see those brainless chinaman swearing in broken ping yin. =P

It was crazy la,all the rounds I played I losed.Im beginning to get the impression that Im a jinx or badluck to my allies.They never fail to lose everytime im their ally.I lost a total of 9 *Lol IX much?* rounds today -_______-....

Talk bout being a badluck charm to the team..wahahaha.Best part was,Im not the one dying and spawning.Its THEM.LOOOOOL.This is so damn fun...wahahaha,Im suchanevilbastard =P


On a 2nd note,I begun spamming 4minute on my iTunes.And Muzik and Hot Issue are juz awesome songs.lol~ Great for clearing mental blockages.Literally blast them away with the beat and stuff...Oh,and nice dances~

Lastly,I shall keep back sumthing ^^
This is getting funky and weird..lol

=X

Monday, October 12, 2009

Hair-ribble

Hair-ribble

Whats that u ask?Why its a known word in the Oxford,mate~
Hair-ribble : A combination of Hair and Terrible

When u see sumone *Cough cough me* with a terrible hairstyle,juz say Hair-rrible~!


Guess I regret cutting it that way..lol
All thanks to me falling asleep on the barber chair
Yes...scold me all u want *Lmao*,I fell asleep and let that pair of blade wizz through my head surface :P

I miss long hair :(

Laugh all you want la! =_=
Im gonna be stuck here for 2 months before my head becomes a living black jungle again :D

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Visor eyes for thou


*Prismatic*

Silence broken free
Of glares from thee
Well placed on thy
For that,dreams fly

Glass walls shatter
Thoughts all splatter
Open thy crater
Revealing a breaker

Warmth flown in
Light was keen
Soft as the wind
Its presence only at skin

Unknown to thou eyes
Thy is bright as the skies
For thee,all is nice
And for thy,none wise

Droplets pelt the ground
Hopes grown fully round
But in its midst,thy drown
Be green,to never allow around...




And yeah,lol u guys probably notice my new Taeyeon wallpaper as display

This week shall be appreciate Taeyeon week so yeah,it'll be on for 1 week.lmao =P



Brian's SECRET Bday Celebration Plan Exposed!

Secret Blog File code iGnITiON-X09A

Title : Debriefing of Operation B.R.I.A.N *Bring Rapid Interruption And plaNning..lol*
Date of conduct : 11.10.09
Time of operation : 1800 hours
Report presented by : Agent M :P

_______________________________________________

The Subject of Interest
Homo sapien goes by the name of Brian Chin
Mission Objective : Surprise him and if possible,trigger his tear receptors to start working

Start of debriefing , initial mission planning and background work will be revealed Now :



The subject in yellow,Brian.
Current status : Leader of IX and single =X
*whoops,lol shall make amendments to Hq later on report*



Secret meeting to plan for his bday was carried out in a place codenamed 1U,Kfc restaurant.
We SECRETLY met and SECRETLY discussed on the plan once friday's practice was cancelled suddenly...fehehehehehehehe...
*Btw,Hi Ian outside the window with a hp xP *



Among the locations we chose for having our meal,one of em was Nandos.
Location rejected due to unspecified means. =P



A vital strategist in Operation B.R.I.A.N
His face was captured in an odd manner when he fiddled with my camera without realising the lense pointing at an awkward spot. *Lol,guess whose nose is it =D *



I humbily apologize to those eating while reviewing my report and mission debriefing statements.
Some found this picture rather disturbing.. =P
*Guess whose nose those 2 pics belong to and tell me ur answer =D *



I shall not indentify who that is.Lmao



The mastermind behind the crucial success in the Operation,Iam Kam and Pang Yean.
Note their dorkyness when posing for my camera.
Shall not comment any further *Lol*



The planning commitee had to remain anonymous.
So they went by this four cups,Pang Yean,Ian,Wei Jian,and me
*Ps,the cups say Hi :D *


Mission day

In order to fool the Bday boy,we had decided to meet up at 6 with the excuse of spending time at the arcade before a movie.The movie was scheduled to begin at 8 but was none other than a setup to lure the target to TGI Fridays.Lol,he fell for it like a chipmunk to a pile of nuts *I know Im not making sense,lol BUT Whatever la.MY BLOG >:3 RAWR*

Using the excuse of fixing Pang Yean's hp,we went down the lif only to see :
1)4 girls lining up using the public phones *LOL?*
2)2 people standing infront of the bin *hahahaha*
3)And 3 more girls stoning at the corner *Dunno doing what lmao =P *

Before u know it,our leader was caught by surprise and he was about to cry bcuz he was touched.We only manage to watch his eyes go red so far,nothing more. *Damn~ hahaha*
Went in to TGI for dinner.The following data obtained explains everything.



Bday boy standing on the chair.



Ask to sing a song using the UNIQUE "ketchup mic".
Sing la Brian~



I personally saw to the completion of my "masterpiece",the Bday card
This is it,with a poem intact for him.Did it on the day itself~
*Thx for the company btw,and the drink..*

*Hope u like it Brian!*



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The mastermind behind the plan.
Here he is seen disguised as his brother,Shaun Kam.
BUT...it wont WORK! =P
We all know ur Ian ;)



Poser 1 : Whats up with my hp
Poser 2 : Im not posing,Im calling someone to arrange the meeting
At location 2,Mc D in 1U to discuss the plan after booking the dining area and settling the cake issue.



The conclusion of the night
1million Rupiah up for grabs to those who can decipher its meaning =P



The cake,MURDERED!
:O
Motive : Intentional.Lol



Our beloved leader,trying to achieve the "Blow candle from X distance" stunt.



Trying to use the waiter as a platform to launch himself over.
LOL,what happen if his scapula or acromion bone crack? =P



Finally resorting to my drawn card to be used as a blowing device
TT_TT
Lol,nvm la.
Result of attempted feat :
FAILED in using lips
FAILED in flying over waiter
and
FAILED in using bday card to blow

Solution?He got down and blow it manually la,lmao!

____________________________________

Conclusion,leader was happy and Mission was Successful.Though they were many casualties as we lost a lot of green notes in the process,it was worth it in bringing immense joy and a feeling of being touched to the bday boy. *Guess what,we deepened the bonds and chains that hold us as one,so green notes kinda meant little la this time x) *

May u find a new light and strike with a fight in this new era.For ur future is brighter than ever now..my good and best fren,leader,voice of IX,and brotherly figure who never stopped giving us warmth and love along with skill and care.

Conclusion of report : Mission successful,but we will have to consider our resources appropriately next time.*LOLOLOL,cough "green notes" cough~*
We'll pull more extreme and interesting stuff to be reported next time for Hq. *Lmao*

Signed out,
Agent M reporting for now :D

ps : Hq is fictional and none existence.The above military report is meant for display only. x)

Thursday, October 8, 2009

A trip through Time in a square called Times Square

*A flower for the lady*

Bright and warm
Light and calm
Softly on my palm
Winds blowing through the farm

Skies all clear
Thoughts to that dear
Light cutting through fear
Only the clouds can hear

The green came alive
Birds took a dive
For she will shine
The bringer of life

Her voice cut anger
Her light cut despair
Her eyes cut hatred
Her lips skin the deepest of doubts

Bathing in sunlight
Stood sumthing bright
Top glowing white
It hung on tight..

A flower stood elegantly
Her green tender leaves
Those bright white petals
She dances with the wind

Blue for those without a clue..
White for those who think I might..
Red for those thinking it was a dead..
Yellow for those who think it was mellow..

Yday we had a dinner with the organizers for the Tuesday performance.It was great I guess..went to Times Square after that for a dose of Gundam SEED : Zaft vs Alliance.
Guess what? Nicky was my ally.Talk about awesome~ :D

The 1st round was a disaster la.Unlike in the show where Freedom Gundam and Justice Gundam would kick all bad ass,we got ours kicked instead. :(
Guess I wasnt Athrun Zala and Nicky wasnt Kira Yamato after all.LOL,we died at stage one >_<
Bahhhhh! Threw away RM1 juz like that lmao.

2nd round was much better,made it to stage 7,not without fighting against the Strike Gundam and the Archangel battleship *Siao la,how to win!?* I took Aegis Gundam and had Athrun in it while Nicky took Sword Strike Gundam with Kira in it :D *Gundam SEED remake,haha*

Died at stage 7,Nicky was blown to bits by Rau in the CGUE Custom -____- LOL,but we had to leave la so yeah its ok I guess.It was fun,and kiddo..Dun go dying on me next time =P
*Sorry I had to go Gundam spasm.Haha*


Pictures


Nicky's screen asked for more money.Lol



A meaningful shot? Hmm..guess where it is.



I bought this during my "outing" at Times Square.Gave it to my bro in the end.



The cute SD Gundam Exia Repair Ver.II



SM,lol I thought of SM Ent immediately.
Funny,outside this shop was a shop selling SM artist posters.Guess the posters were attracted to this board.



Till then,
Micky

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

...

The soft embrace of forgiveness..let us find that once more.

And upon finding that,let us return to where everyone is..
-Kira Yamato,CE 73 after acquiring the Freedom-

Its over,I'll do what I have to from now on.I fully understand..

Till then

Monday, October 5, 2009

Checklist

Was too harsh [Tick]

Was too insensitive *Maybe* [Semi tick]

Was wrong on the facts given [Cross]

Wondering what happened to the fella who went MIA back then
[Tick]

Tried to apologize for being rude? [Tick]
Accepted? [Cross]

Regret anything? [Tick]



Saturday, October 3, 2009

So it speaks for itself :)


*LOVELESS*

Prologue
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting..

Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds

Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul

Pride is lost

Wings stripped away, the end is nigh..

Act III
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow

My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess

Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return

Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess

My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber

Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely

Act V
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice.


Loveless is a poem from Final Fantasy VII : Crisis Core.

Though in real life more of sumthing fantasy-like,I still can find some similiarities between Loveless and my life story.

In the prologue,it pretty much described my life back during the "drawing era" when I was looking for a guidance.And indeed,I found what I wanted.In the form of 7 people now.Im grateful thy Goddess did answer my prayers.

Act 1 described what we hunted for.Though in this context the 'Gift of the Goddess' isnt really given by the goddess.It was more like a skill we sought to improve among IX.Of course,some did "take to the sky".As for some..they went on and continue wandering in search of what our frenship meant.Along the way,"ripples" in the form of misunderstandings keep coming to challenge our frenship.

Act 2 spoke of dreams.True indeed,we will have to pay a certain price for that.If u ask me,my dreams are already achieved since I was 17.Back when we were dancing as frens,and now still so. :)

Act 3 spoke of the time when faith in my group laid low.It was bad.I juz cudnt bring myself to trust Brian or the rest.And yes,in the end I did return.

I'll leave the rest to ur mind.But anyways,Im juz glad I found my own version of the "Gift of the Goddess".

In my own interpretation,I misinterpreted it initially.Only to discover sumthing closer nearby.Of course it'll take time to find out in detail what and how it is.But as of now,Im juz glad...

Each of u too have ur own "Gift of the Goddess" to go after.Basically anything that comes as an aim,or sumthing u wished or desire is the "Gift of the Goddess".Good or bad,this interpretation is left in ur mind. :)

Till then,
Though we have flaws,Im gonna stick with u all...IX
And thank u.

Friday, October 2, 2009

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Ok...maybe I was a bit too harsh in the previous post

But my stand remains.



And yeah,that aint cool.



Till then


Thursday, October 1, 2009

Clear blue sky...

Hello~ :D

I guess its time for another small rant on my bunch of frens. =X
Yeah yeah,I know...if there's sumthing im not happy I always write it in my little "cyber-diary" *More like Death Note style =P *

Its not really serious but I do hope they can fix it.I know I got flaws too but Im trying to work on it.Maybe my personality is more towards "be ready for anything".Im a perfectionist after all *As seen from my drawings and comics* Hence I really hate last minute and those who arent punctual. :)

From the last performance,I kinda saw things that I didnt really like.

Especially a certain stunt that wasnt ready but was kinda pushed into the performance last min.Maybe it looked normal on stage but from behind the scenes,I kinda felt sorry for the stuntman.He was still working on that trick but was included in the dance performance.The same nearly went for me as I was nearly asked to do sumthing I have yet to feel confident about.
Its not the stunt Im complaining about,its the attitude in which we were asked.The way he speaks kinda puts me off cuz it seems easy to accomplish in his eyes.I kinda felt scraped when he asked "How hard is it to flip?".Maybe he could be a little more caring and sensitive to us stuntmen cuz whatever it is...If the stunt fails,we're the ones to bear the shame.Not u.So pls dun make it sound so easy,as to "gas our heads too much".And pls dun give the excuse saying im too sensitive..if u intend to pursue "competition" level dancing,this kind of stunts means a lot to us stuntmen.Its our pride..

The fact that he didnt know what we were performing for was still ok.But when he found out how big it was and showed the shock face kinda annoys me.Cuz we were already talking about sumthing related to China-Malaysia relationship hence the theme of the performance.And yet How could you not know!?Im sorry,that juz totally p*ssed the ****ing daylight out of me and showed how ignorant u are.Why else will the stage director chase us all around?Bcuz its a big event.And we arent allowed to screw up.

Lastly,I dun understand how dressing up can hurt.It juz dissapoints me when I saw him come in a black T-shirt.Ever since our debut performance,he have been known for his "Black shirt blue jeans" outfit.Sure,I dun mind wearing that.But...that being a last resort incase we cant find proper costumes..!?Seriously? I've given up whatsoever hope and advice when it comes to clothing.I juz refuse to suggest anymore bcuz I know it'll go to waste.

Shirts maketh a man.When u see a white surgical gown and gloves,its a doctor.When u see old pants and oil stained shirts with car logos,its a mechanic.When u see an impressive outfit,it shows ur a performer.
I cant stress how important it is to dress up for big events like our latest performance.I felt low when we were asked to style our hair and dress up by the organizing commitee.Cuz seriously,our standard of appearance is bad.Take battleground for example..

The first impression is important.It strikes them deeply that we're here to perform.Thats what that matters.U dun have to buy or spend like our other "fren".All u have to do is have a little dress sense and dress up.Im sorry,maybe its in me from my Mum.I prefer to wear and give a good impression,even though I cant dance well.I hope our next performance,we will buck up in that department.. *Then again,Im ranting.Who the ****'s gonna give a damn*

When I mentioned our dress code like SHINee,I didnt meant for us to wear tight colourful jeans.I wanted a new look for us.Rather than formal outfits or black shirts blue jeans all the time.Isnt it sickening?Yeah,its not cuz u dun see how important clothes are.But anyway,I juz wanted a variety of colours for us.When I say I want street wear,I dun mean black shirts/white shirts and blue jeans.I want to wear maybe a nice jacket and a coloured shirt with designs inside.And a matching dark blue jeans to go with it.Thats what I meant by street wear and dressing up..

I hope u'll listen.I seriously kinda find u annoying and ignorant sumtimes.Though u emo after battleground and did regret sumthings,ur inner self didnt change.U were still the same now.

When we say we'll find back our passion to dance after that incident,I hope we meant we learned sumthing.
Not like what u expected,there are more skilled dancers out there.And that world of dancing is not for u to conquer yet,thats what I hate.. The idea that others are weaker and its ur turn to conquer.


I know I learned sumthing..I live for my own passion of dancing.Not for the desire to be stronger..
Competitions can tear u away from frens.Cuz ur inner greed and desires come in the way.

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"We wont break cuz we suck"
Wrong...we will...U juz have yet to see their other sides when desires and dreams seduce the mind.And pls dun use the word We,frankly Im not pleased with the fact that this was generalized.I know Im not the best,but Im growing at my own pace.We shud have confidence...
I dislike u for the fact that u refuse to put on ur best shoe and dance with confident,only to say we suck and give negative feedbacks once we're done performing..

I personally didnt see anything wrong in what I perform.As usual,I practice and I wanna be as close to perfect as possible..

I hope u'll slowly open up and be more sensitive.From what I heard,ur as tough as a bull.I hope to see a new change,take em by the horns...

Till then